Hello February=)

Been so busy for the past 1 month! Im currently stucked happily in Medical posting. I admit that before I enter this posting, I've always think that its a very dry and boring posting, but now Im having a totally different view. I enjoy talking with patients everyday, clerking and follow up with their progress and learn how they are being treated. Ward 7 is just like a live library, filled with live medical textbooks, just so much to learn from every different patients that I've clerked! And eventually seeing them getting better each day, I just can't help feeling happy for my patients:) 

Well, that was the happy part. Of course, the counterpart always follow, like a shadow. Been scold countless times by specialists, with or without any good reason. But its ok for me though, understand their workload. Moreover, medical students are the time when we should accept all the scoldings right? Better being scold now when no damage to patient is done, rather than when we start to work as HO when scolding cannot bring a patient back to life. No affordable mistake that can be made anymore once we start working as a doctor. This may sound scary, because who never make mistakes? But as far as Im concern, I wish I could just stay focus and keep strong mind in whatever thing that I do, and try my best to help my patient.

Oh did I tell you I've got one of the most famous Prof as my supervisor and examiner for this posting? Some gave me loads of advices out of concern, some looked at me with those sympathy expression, whilst some laughed at me for being so-called-unfortunate. No doubt I was once intimidated by the scary rumor, but c'mon! Who knows whether its a blessing in disguise? At least Im having such a good motivation to study and don't allow myself to sink into laziness everyday. And so far everything is good. Im just gonna work my butt off, try my best to improve myself everyday, stop worrying about the future that I couldn't control and accept any outcome that results.

Lastly, can't wait to go back for Chinese New Year! 
My home~my family~my pet~CNY delicacies~~~
:D

Happy 2013:)

This is my very first post in 2013:

Firstly, before writing this I've spent about half an hour reading back my posts in 2012 and only did I realized that there were not as many as I thought have written. To me its not a bad thing as revealing too much of myself through written words in this digital world is not a good way to know me. Yea, because words can cheat, words have no expressions. I have thought of abolishing this blog actually, but in the end I still decided to keep it. As long as Im not wasting too much time on it, its nevertheless a good portal of sharing of my thoughts and a gateway to channel out my emotion, be it positive or negative.

2012 was a really happening year to me. I experienced countless events that were least expected to happen. All the problems and feelings were SO mixed up and complicated till I couldn't even recall the events in sequence. Perhaps its because I decided to let go. The past is the past. Yes, I agree that the tiny thorns are not so easy to remove, but Im still hoping that things can turn better. Just let the nature takes its course.

But, no matter how, Im still standing on my own feet. I've learnt to listen to my heart, to choose and believe on my stand. 

I keep resolutions for every new year, non-exceptionally for 2013:

to work hard, learn as much as I can, and enjoy each and every posting>pass every posting exams making sure I have adequate knowledge in each field in order to become safe doctor in the future>graduate and leave Kelantan>become a House officer who practice medicine safely and be able to take care of the sick, preferably as close to my home as possible:)

Just as simple as that.

Happy new year everyone!

May all beings have peaceful mind, healthy body and practice good morality. 

Together, we can make this world a better place to live.