恭喜发财!!!^^

今年的农历新年
虽然没有华丽的新衣裳
但却是目前我所过的，最欢喜的华人新年=)


原因超简单：
就是一家人团团圆圆，和乐融融地吃饭
大年初一开开心心地去运动爬山
和父母一同买年货
替弟弟庆生
和妹妹一同逛街
还一起烤花生饼
及搓汤圆
世间还有什么比这些更珍贵呢？


当然还有回祖母家拜年
与亲戚们哈拉
姻缘巧合之下也拜访了Vihara Buddha Gotama一趟
有机会一定要再次拜访那里的师父


每逢过年必做的事
就是与老同学们一起团聚，去拜年
到每个同学家及老师家去讨红包


最后过年最难忘的
就是吃个不停
妈妈煮的子姜鸭最入味
还有甜鸡酒最最最好吃
完全无法抗拒甜食和饼干的我
每拜访一家就会把过年饼都试一遍
自己的家业摆放了一系列，不同种类的年饼
在回大学前一天还拜托妈妈烘个奶油蛋糕


吃得本小姐都难以鼓起勇气站到秤上量体重


今天。。。
又再次离开了家
回到了熟悉的大学
心态与往常不同
没有太大的抗拒
也不会感到太伤心
大概是因为学佛后稍微懂得如何把心态调好吧

总之
在此恭祝大家永乐安康，学业进步
开学愉快唷~
=]

♥lastly♥

love ya papa

love ya mama

love ya cutie sis

and love ya handsome bro

Im a Buddhist

Looking back at my previous post, the younger me would never believe that its written by her future self. Im a Buddhist since I was in secondary school but was never a quite faithful follower. In fact, most of the time I'll consider myself a free-thinker. But as time goes by, as Im growing up, there's one more thing that I've discovered, that is the importance of one's spiritual development. 

Ps, no offense to free-thinkers out there, if you're feeling somewhat uncomfortable reading my post you can just "X"...But Im so gonna share my view on religion with you all here:)

During the Dhamma class that I've attended last weekend, I asked:

师父，为什么我总是觉得不快乐？

为什么我会觉得很寂寞很想家？

师父答：

一，有可能你还没有找到你的人生目标，所以总觉得生活没意义。

二，有可能你心中没有一个依靠。

These two reasons are so true indeed. Regarding the first reason, its not that I haven't decided on my life goal yet, being a doctor is the only occupation that I wish to do in the future. I've made this decision since I was Form 4, when I developed interest towards Biology and human's physiology, and when I figured out that life is simply too short, so Im gonna live a challenging, meaningful life by choosing this profession of white robe. I don't wanna live a simple life and work like a robot. I wanna see different people with different illness and challenges everyday that need my help to alleviate their sufferings. I know this sounds cheesy-fishy-whatever but that was what inside my mind, really. However, I did realise that my love towards people isn't that strong. I think it takes time to develop this greatest love of all, towards all people regardless of race and religion. So...I guess this doesn't count as one of the reason right?=)

To me, I think the second reason plays a bigger role. When parents are no longer by my side, physically I meant, what i can rely on is my friends. But friends, to me, frankly speaking, they are impermanent, and you wouldn't know whether they'll betray and leave you in the next second. This makes me feel so vulnerable, sometimes...So, my trust and understanding in Buddha teachings has become my core of living, just like a guide or map. Whenever I've lost my way, I'll just refer to His teachings.

Im sure that any major religions lead their followers to a positive, correct way of living, not only Buddhism. So I respect any other religions as well. Im glad that Im still not too late in realizing the importance of spiritual development, because it does makes you a better person, with more positive outlook and hope towards life.

SO

say bye to the old me

the depressed, miserable me

life is definitely worth living

if you have found the reason

快乐何在？

人 为什么会不快乐？
快乐不在别人身上
快乐在你自己的心


我们每天都只注重，照顾外表
每天洗澡，打扮得光鲜亮丽
每天把肚子喂得饱满
但你曾好好地照顾过你的心吗？


人活在世上越久
心自然就会越混浊


现今社会问题越来越多
也是因为心出了问题


人之所以会病倒
大部分也是从心病起


所以，有空就多静坐
把心静下来
把心定下来
把心净化


一切由心而起
当心是纯洁的
快乐自然会来

这是我参加了Dhamma Talk后所领悟的小小道理

与各位和我一样在寻找快乐的朋友们

共勉之~

_/\_sadhu sadhu sadhu_/\_

the rules of living 2012

The first rule of living through 2012:

To never ever compare yourself to others.

This has never been an easy rule for me to abide to, but i'll try my best:)

Second rule:

quoted from the late Steve Jobs

"Don't be trapped by dogma-which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others'opinions drown out your own inner voice."

Third rule:

also quoted from Steve Jobs

"Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."

As my daddy has always taught me: Just do whatever you think that it's right.

Hopefully i could stick to these three rules as much as i can la=)

✿  ✿  ✿

WOW!!!

I feel like Nervous System Block just passed by like a storm! Within this 5 weeks, we've been bombarded with LOTS of lectures, seminars, clinical demonstrations, radiology sessions, PBLs, clinical teachings and the list goes on and on...and THAT hasn't count in those extra pile of books that we need to read and self-study yet! Time, has never been enough for me to cover everything, and i just couldn't understand how certain people can read and learn so quick and efficient. Nevertheless, I'm still quite happy with my own progression, well i think i've grabbed at least 70% of the essence of such complex organ. 

It was such a fun block actually, especially with my interest of the brain. Plus those 5-star-neurologists/neurosurgeons in HUSM as our lecturers and tutors. It was indeed a great learning experience. The only thing is that, this complex organ really requires so much reading and time to understand. Those physical examinations were so many and some signs were just too hard to be elicited, but there were all so FUN & INTERESTING to perform. And the part when you should correlate all the findings and try to localize where the lesion is...THAT was the hardest and most challenging part, yet exciting!!!^^

I can't really differentiate whether im loving/hating this nervous system block, but i can only tell that i feel a sense of relieve...Tomorrow we'll be starting a whole new block-Psychology!!! Sounds interesting, and the time table seems less hectic. Great! At least i can use those time to brush up more on Nervous System. 

And that's about it dear readers! Sorry if i made you feel bored, but this is what i wish to share with you guys, my original thoughts...

Lastly...

Final rule:

To have fun and enjoy life!

Smile & laugh when i still have teeth!

hehehe:D

on new year eve

Hi world:D
wonder why everybody's talking bad about 2011


i mean...
it couldn't be THAT bad right?
bad memories give us lifelong lessons
nice memories give us something sweet to savour
and im grateful that when i look back 
i recalled more smiles than tears


So, its another last day of the year. And im stuck at my campus as usual. Tonight's gonna join a Buddhist activity outside campus though, at least my new year eve is occupied by a much meaningful activity than reading lecture notesX)


Hhmmm, it has always been my habit of jotting down new year resolutions. And i've just took a glimpse on my last year's resolution. Interestingly, im actually thinking of reuse and recycling most of them to be this year's resolution, maybe just need some modifications. Will updates with you guys once i've figured it out:)


Before publishing the final list of new year resolution, i have one, just ONE little wish for the upcoming year...


~I wish to live a happier, purposeful life


ONE more...hehe


~I wish for good health and happiness to my loved ones, esp my family

Lastly,

DEAR READERS

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

MAY EVERYBODY BE BLESSED WITH A MORE JOYFUL YEAR AHEAD

=)

dearest 2011,

thanks for the memories

but i won't linger around you anymore

will be starting my life anew with enthusiasm and hope!!! 

a weekend retreat

*beaming with joy*

will be heading home tonight!!!
gonna celebrate Winter Solstice and also Christmas with my beloved family this year!!!


although i only have 3 precious days to be spent with my family
but its more than enough to cure my homesickness


and im gonna take this opportunity to take a break from my studies
sometimes when you're too occupied in doing the same damn thing everyday
you tend to forget the ultimate reason why you're doing it
and you'll see life as a meaningless one


promised that i'll return on monday as a brand new me
living with passion and compassion
love towards people
and never, ever forget my hope and dream

wishing my dear readers

Merry Christmas

&

冬至快乐

=)

choose happiness

I'm not perfect.

Usually, I won't reveal much of my inner thoughts in this cyberspace but somehow today i feel like doing so. Simply because there's no reason why i shouldn't. Those who don't care won't give a damn on what I'm trying to tell here, whilst those who are my beloved family and friends will get to know more about this girl.

Yes, as what I've told, I'm not perfect. Although I always give false impressions to others that I seems so, I just don't know why. The fact is, you guys just can't see beneath this shimmery glittery surface of mine.

Most of the time, I'm drowning in my own pool of self-pityness. I blame the whole universe but myself for being stuck in this jungle of nowhere for pursuing Medicine, forgetting that it's actually my own choice. I chose my dream of becoming a doctor, I'm pursuing my dream, only thing is that I'm not feeling happy, and I blame it on this place, of being way too far from home, of being too rural, too "malays", too scarce of food etc etc. In the end of the day, I choose to feel miserable, neglecting that there's another choice called happiness.

Sometimes, I may even blame myself for choosing this dream, especially when I'm too stressed and worn out of energy from studying. I never deny that I love the knowledge I gained in the field of Medicine, just that the journey can be so tiring and never-ending. And that made me question myself: why do i choose this spiky stony road? Again, in the end of the day, I choose to feel miserable, forgetting the joy of knowledge seeking, and putting aside my life goal of saving people from illness and sufferings.

I'm such a bad girl, whenever i call and tell my parents about my misery. I knew I shouldn't do so, but I just can't control myself. I love my parents a lot. Calling home should be a warm and happy thing to do, but because of my bad habit, I feel even worse after talking to my parents because it further aggravates my homesickness. I'm feeling so bad for creating pressure to my parents because I keep on telling them how sad and stressed and miserable I am and how much I miss them...

Life offers us choices. 

You can choose to feel miserable and make your life difficult, 

or you can choose happiness and make your life easier.

And today, I'm courageous enough to tell you guys my story because I've decided to make a choice. Yes, I want to choose happiness. It's not easy to break the bad habit and make such a huge change within a short time, I need determination and by taking baby steps, I hope I can transform the rain into sunshine within no time. Meanwhile, I just need to remind myself from time to time. 

"Choose Happiness" 

wish me luck

;)

most memorable part of my interesting medical student life

although its only been a week since i posted my last entry

i feel like centuries!!!

dunno why~

most probably due to the hectic week i guess

so how's everyone?

=]

as what i told ya... my last whole week were sooo packed, like canned sardinesX)... anyway, im glad that i made it through. So, to summarize(so that dear readers you won't "X" my blog^^), the main event of my 3rd year in this university has finally ended, quite successfully i would say, which is the Intervarsity Wushu Championship. There were lots of preparations, quarrels, sweats and tears but the most important thing is that at the end of the day, when we think back what we did, that will bring smiles on your face=)... And i think we've made a good impression of our Wushu Club to other universities too, as most of their feedbacks are the positive ones...

Well, right after that event, after the hustle and bustle of cleaning and tidy up the mess, the day after, was our turn to revisit our village for our CFCS Intervention Programmes, and this time, its no laughing matter, cz we need to stay at a foster parents' home for 5 days!!! I just gotta admit that i was feeling quite worried+anxious, cz although im not that princess-sy, im still having my own intolerance over certain things. Anyhow, i tried to believe in my coping and adapting skill, and eventually things turned out good^^

if it wouldn't be my stolen faves crocs shoes...and the cockroaches and ants in my room at my foster parents' house, i would say that things were GREAT!!!X)

  

lets enjoy some snapshots from our CFCS programme!!!

which consists of activities such as house-to-house visit for educate and poster-distribution, family day, health screening, talks and forums, taiji practice sessions etc etc...

our objective was to educate the villagers on living a healthy lifestyle by exercising and eating healthily, in order to reduce obesity^^

my mak angkat and ayah angkat...and also another 2 malay friends who were staying in the same family with me...

my first meal with my keluarga angkat...a noble lunch cooked by all of us together...

ps,i was in-charged of the vege^^

various kuih prepared by my mak angkat...she ROCKSSSS at making kuihs!!!hehe

the pretty girl on the right with brown shirt is my adik angkat...on free time,she brought us to some sight-seeings around the kampung and this nice unpolluted river

besides, i've also tried many things that i've never even heard before, such as cooking "bubur asyura"

 the end product of bubur asyura after stirring non-stop from 8am-5pm...

ingredients: rice,water,corn,beef,red bean,green bean,gula melaka,sugar,various spices,curry,coconut milk,blended onion,chilis and garlics...

sounded weird, but surprisingly, it tasted quite good!

*on individual preference

we invited one of our lecturer in USMkk, Dr Ang to teach the villagers to practice taiji...

 some of the games played during the Family Day...

cooking demonstration and competition...our objective was to teach the villagers how to cook their food in the healthy way by reducing the usage of oil, sugar and salt...

colouring competition

给自己

无论多累 
都得努力撑下去


无论多气 
都得保持菩萨般清静的心


无论多郁闷
都得抱着开朗的心情


无论多缺乏睡眠
都得试着精神奕奕


无论多紧张压力
都得保持镇定


黄欣茹
相信自己
能走到今天的你
肯定不是想象中的脆弱！！！


最后，只想告知于未来的挑战：
来吧~
我已全副武装等待克服你！！！

rewinding happy days

well these were the few things that i did during my hols

sharing with you guys

at the same time rewind those happy moments♥

simple happiness comes from every early morning hill-hiking with my parents and our pet doggy Cody

we celebrated my sis's sweet 16th birthday during our Penang trip, and satisfied her wish of a Chocolate Indulgence cake from Secret Recipe

not to forget to spend some time with my  beloved popo

next would be my cousin: Ah Teng jie jie's wedding...all i can see is an over-the-moon bride smiling like she's the happiest,luckiest girl in the world!!!and her bridegroom oh-so-romantic singing to welcome his bride during the grand entrance was the highlight of the night!!!they just looked super gorgeous together!!!wishing them of eternal love and forever happiness^^

and all my relatives looked soOO gorgeous too during the wedding dinner!!!

last but not least...my cooking diary again=)

i tried to bake a super healthy oatmeal cookies with less sugar,less butter,less flour,less eggs and MORE oatmeals!!!so i'll not feel guilty when eating it hehe!and i added raisins and choc chips...and it just taste SO nice!!!one of my fave end product...will bake it again perhaps during CNY hols...

and this...TADAA~

is my daddy's favourite roast chicken...sometimes i could be so jealous of this chicken because i suspect my daddy miss him more than me...just kidding la~XD

anyway,its seasoned with butter,rosemary,lemon,salt,pepper and oregano spices...and then bake in the oven with slices of pumpkin...one of the successful recipe that i "steal" from Masterchef Australia hehe