CNY F3V3R~~~

i showed my note in the standby mode where it was displayed on the wallpaper, written:

9am to 12noon - mini ochestra practise at tutor classroom

4pm - pack all my things needed for CNY performance tonight, which include my pink blouse, purple dress, and black high heel shoes for mini ochestra performance, wushu performance t-shirt, water bottle, handphone, tissue papers, my wushu members name list, schedule for tonight's events, a few packs of biscuits, lip gloss, my violin etc etc....

4.15pm - take bath and wear contact lens

4.45pm - mini ochestra final pratise

6pm - wushu warm up and final practise

finally...the night has arrived...we put on some light make ups so that we will not look like some pale ghost under the spotlight of the stage...everyone of the mini ochestra wore pink blouse...everyone was looking so elegant and pretty...we waited outside of the backstage...doing some warm-ups with our music instruments...trying to calm down ourselves...for me, my eyes were stuck on the sky...countless stars were shining so brightly in the sky if anyone ever noticed it...the view was so calming as the starry sky wrapped my heart like a big warm blanket...suddenly we heard some grave deep sounds made by the drums...the emcees started talking and welcome the VIPs...then...applauses that were loud enough to drown us into intense nervousness...

and then..."WE PROUDLY PRESENT YOU THE MINI OCHESTRA!!!"the emcees introduced...

i was among the last person to show up on the stage...the moment i set my foot on the stage, the scene had hit me really hard on my head...hundreds, nearly thousands of people filled every possible free space in Dewan Dato Bahaman...seats were not enough and some of them were standing near the entrance and some of them have found themselves some tables to stand on it so that they can get a better view...the performance started...everything went smooth and steady...i can feel that people were enjoying our music...they paid attention to every single notes and expressions and clapped loudly...i think i even heard someone called my name...and YES! im sure that our mini ochestra performance was a great success...

Next...after finished the mini ochestra performance...i rushed to the backstage to change my attire to my wushu outfits...and i had to adjust myself mentally for my next wushu performance...met up with all my wushu members and i can see that they were all feeling really nervous...i gave them some words of encouragement and here comes our performance..overall...the wushu performance has gained good responses from the audiences too!!...

within around an hour or more...everything was finished...people started leaving and the performers started to busy taking pictures with each other...eager to capture every moment before it is over...{i took tonnes of pictures, grabbing everyone within my reach to take pictures with him or her!hahax^^}

after the event was finished...nobody ever mentioned about the performances anymore...i guess i know why...maybe it is because we are all afraid that if the comments are bad, everyone will sure be feeling disappointed, so we have rather chosen to remain silent and keep our mouths shut...but honestly...deep inside my heart...i actually knew that our wushu performance was not as good as the rehearsal's one...however....WHO CARES??the most important thing is that we have tried our best and nothing in this world is perfect...the audiences still enjoy our performance afterall...perhaps they never even notice that there has been some mistakes!!^^

the photo session lasted for about an hour...everyone was really exhausted but still enjoying the atmosphere...by around 12.30am...

people started leaving...

dragging footsteps that were filled with tiredness...

danggling hands were tired of posing while taking pictures...

reddish eyes that can barely be opened...

and explosive minds that were filled with precious memories of the night...

and now....

a week has passed...

it feels like everything returns to its normal state...as calm as the deep blue sea...

it feels weird without wushu practises for every monday,wednesday and sunday from 6-7.30pm...

it feels weird without playing violin almost everyday with the ochestra...

it feels weird to meet my wushu members halfway when im rushing for lectures...

i still feel like telling them:"wei...remember today 6pm we have wushu practise at DDB ah...please be punctual la~"...one more time...we need to adapt...to this new, yet old, boring atmosphere...

nobody can truly understand how much laughters and tears we have shared together while we were together practising wushu...

nobody can really see how cute, adorable and loving creatures my wushu members are...{my friends usually roll their eyes when i tell them this you see...}

and i agree with all my heart when someone said:"this CNY event had somehow united all the chinese in this college..."it is indeed true...through this event i got to know a whole new batch of friends, and we are all come from different places, different courses and will never ever befriend with if not of this event...

"friends...especially for my wushu members...{i usually call them as my "ai tu"}...i will never ever forget the moments we shared together...thanks....for everything..."this is the message that i wana convey to them...

Countdown

1st countdown

KMPh CNY celebration

Duration left: 22 hours 50 minutes

A big melting pot of mixture of feelings~can't wait to have a nice, good rest after everything is done...yet feeling so sad as we have spent so much time to prepare and to make sure that everything is perfect for our performance...well..maybe we have spent a little bit too much time together that in the moment between, friendships and chemical bondings are building up silently, without anyone's notice...and now...i wonder if we still have the chance to gather'round after this event is over?and,am i the only one who is going to miss this whole thing after it is finished?...

2nd countdown

A holiday trip to KL

Duration left: 2 weeks

So excited and looking forward to it~3 or maybe 4 days of stay in kl to meet my godmother, to celebrate my grandmother's b'day and to meet up with my parents...i think this will be the last time for me to relax and enjoy before the arrival of our final exam...

3rd countdown

Final examination of the matriculation programme

Duration left: 1 month 3 weeks

Damn nervous...getting so worried about PSPM2 as i have quite abandoned my studies since the CNY holiday and the CNY celebration in KMPh...been trying really hard to catch up everything and thank god im not been left behind too much...only a whole stack of homework waiting to be completed...i hope and i believe that i can pass the exam equally well as in my UPS1,PSPM1 and UPS2...c'mon...another 4flat is waiting to be grabbed...

4th countdown

Time to leave KMPh

Duration left: 2 months

Again~it would be such a well-blended mixture of feelings...let's imagine~finally,we have finished our last exam paper by the late afternoon at around 5pm.everyone is cheering,lecturer-in-charged anounces that we can now leave the examination room,and yes,for the very last time...then, everyone will be rushing back to their room to pack up their things and meet some of their friends on the way...they wanted to say goodbye but the word is caught in their throat as it is not an apropriate word this time,because this will not be like the usual goodbye where we can meet again...

Pointless

Time: 2pm
Venue: Cyber room in KMPh library
Purpose: Unknown

It has been such a peaceful and breezy afternoon
I'm sitting in front of an old computer
looking outside through a dusty window
listening to my favourite songs
seeing people rushing to attend their lecture and tutor classes
and me?
obviously...
blogging and writing freely and pointless blogs
why?
as usual...english class has been cancelled...
good news though because i don't think i can learn anything from the english lecturers here>.<
sshhh...im just trying to be honest...^^

hey tell you one thing...
yesterday was the release day of our UPS2 result...
and...
TATA!!4 A's...
felt so happy but immediately started worrying about PSPM2...
hmmm~
must really study day and night after finish the CNY celebration in my college this sunday...

oohya~
i'd like to grab the chance here to blame m' friend chee yan...
he told me that i failed to get 4flat and mind you that time i was having lunch...
instantly,i lost my apetite...
can't finish my food although the fried chicken was nice...
academic achieveness has always been the highest priority in my life(at least for now)...
so dear friend,please wear your specs next time when you look at other people's result k?you will cause them a heart attack you know?....haha^^{just kidding~}
well~congrates to those who also managed to get 4 flat...
and for those who failed,work hard for PSPM2 because UPS is nothing compared to PSPM...

clock ticks
time passes
people walks
and life goes on

our maths lecturer just reminded us that we only have another 7 weeks to be spent here...
which means that in less than 2 months time,i will leave this place forever,most probably...
leaving everything behind
and soon everything will be forgotten
including those special and precious memories
how i wish i can extract all these memories and keep them in a bottle
and lock it in my cupboard maybe...
at least those memories will be well-kept then...

unfortunately,these are merely my creative yet stupid imagination
as time is like bleach...
that can remove even the darkest spot
leaving everything pure, gleaming white

DAMN FRUSTRATED

I started laying on the bed at 12am

and my eyes are still wide-opened now

and please be noticed that the time NOW is 3am

3AM!!!!could you believe it???

for those who knows me well...

they will say:(in cantonese)"even the pig now is able to climb the tree!!lolz~"

im not a so-called "night ghost"...

i heard from my friend before that the online speed at 3am is real fast

and now im experiencing it...

so please be prepared for a never-ending of frustration---

1. 
   
   WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND STOP TALKING FOR A SINGLE MILLISECOND,AT LEAST?
2. 
   
   WHY CAN'T YOU JUST BE A LITTLE MORE CONSIDERATE WITH THE OTHERS AS EXPECTING TOLERATION FROM YOU IS A MISSION IMPOSSIBLE?
3. 
   
   TILL WHEN CAN YOU ONLY LEARN TO CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S FEELINGS?
4. 
   
   IT'S OKAY IF YOU ARE A SUPERHUMAN WHO NEVER NEED ANY REST BUT I'M NOT!!A PEACEFUL,UNDISTURBED SLEEP IS A MUST FOR ME!!
5. 
   
   IT'S OKAY IF YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY CLASSES TO ATTEND TOMORROW BUT I HAVE!!
6. 
   
   IT'S OKAY IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO STUDY,IT IS NONE OF MY BUSSINESS BUT I HAVE TO STUDY TO FIGHT FOR MY FUTURE!!
7. 
   
   IT'S OKAY IF YOU NEVER CLEAN UP YOUR OWN MESS BUT PLEASE MAKE SURE THAT YOU DON'T DIRTY MY PLACE!!
8. 
   
   THE MOMENT I NEARLY FELL ASLEEP,YOUR NEVER-ENDING TALK CONTINUES AND KEPT ME AWAKE,AGAIN!!IT SOUNDED LIKE SOME KINDA ANNOYING HOUSEFLIES,CREATING NOISES WHICH KEEP ON SPINNING AROUND MY HEAD.AND THIS TIME,CONGRATULATION.YOU HAVE CREATED A RECORD OF KEEPING ME AWAKE FOR THE WHOLE,LONG NIGHT!
9. 
   
   THE MOMENT I THOUGHT THAT I CAN FINALLY STUDY IN PEACE,YOUR FILTHY LITTLE FRIENDS CAME IN AND TALK TO YOU,AGAIN!!CHIT AND CHAT AND CHIT AND CHAT (MULTIPLY WITH INFINITY TIMES)~IT IS SUCH A SOUND POLLUTION YOU KNOW?!
10. 
    
    EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE SITTING BESIDE EACH OTHER,YOU SHOUT WHEN YOU TALK AND YOU LAUGH LIKE THE EVIL WITCH IN THE MOVIES!!I HOPE YOU ARE NOT GETTING ANY SORETHROAT THOUGH

and now...

im the only one staying awake...

feeling physically awakened but mentally tortured by tiredness...

I.AM.DAMN.FRUSTRATED

but there's nothing that i can do...

I AM SICK!!!

Gosh~I'm sick!I'm sick!I'm sick!
well~I'm not really SICK actually...
but I'm sick of Biodiversity...
I'm sick of Monera and Protista...
I'm sick of Vectors and Differential Equation and Numerical Methods...
I'm sick of all the disturbing noises which constantly embracing me...
Whew...calm down my dear...you just need to calm down...
Just give yourself a break...
A break is all you need right now...

Weirdo character

"Music gives soul to the universe,
wings to the wind,
flight to the imagination
and life to everything..."
--Plato


Throughout her journey of life
she has met different kinds of people

there are kind souls who always offer to help
there are evil spirits who intend to ruin her life

some friendly enough to return her smile when she smiles to them
some will not even take a glance of her face when she smiles to them

some love to talk to her
some do not even have the guts to look into her eyes when she talks

it's so weird indeed...huh?

But something that has always make her so frustrated is that why can't people just behave in a more friendly way?...It can be just as simple as returning a smile or a simple HALO and it can definitely brighten one's day...Why is she always been treated like a stranger when they are actually friends?...Why must they want to act like a cold stranger to her?...

She has to say that:" I dislike cool people, but warm and friendly people is by far my favourite... "

Meaningful Ponggal

Preparation work going on~~

Sin & I

Sin, Pei Chee & I

Pei Chee(model for indian outfit) & I

Wan Ying & I

One of the dance performance on Ponggal Night

Nice peacock huh?...did by our talented indian fren

Yesterday night was a very special night for our fellow indian friends here as they had held their Ponggal Festival succesfully...although the event was not perfect,but who cares??

The most important thing is that although their population here is extremely small,they managed to hold a big event anyway...

And sadly...They were not getting much supports from the college authorities.They even had to change their theme from PESTA PONGGAL into PESTA KEBUDAYAAN INDIA due to some sensitive issue...

By the way,our indian friends had also raised RM1000 for an orphanage!Though it is not a big amount of money,but again...who cares??It's the heart who matters...The scene when the representatives from the orphanage receive the cheque from the project manager,the broad smile that shown on his wrinkled face,and the clappings of the orphans...All these are really heart-warming,to be honest,it almost made me cry...

Ooohya~there is one thing that is worth mention here,that is...although we are not indians...but we lend them a helping hand on preparing and holding the event anyway.Despite of the differences of skin colours,cultures and religion...We help each other whenever help is needed..it was really touching to see many chinese friends to volunteer themselves to help our indian friends as they are really busy performing on stage,talking as an emcee,etc etc...

They did not even voice out their needs of help,those chinese friends who were supposed to enjoy the show were willing to leave their seats and help doing "labour work" such as distributing foods,bringing the guests to their seats or simply say "WELCOME!!" when somebody new arrive...again...GOSH~it almost made me cry...

To The One I Love Most

mum,wishing you forever young...

~I LOVE YOU~

happy birthday to you~

happy birthday to you~

happy birthday to mummy~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

i apologise...

and im dying for your forgiveness...

for not be there for you on your big day...

this would also be the first time of my life...

to miss your birthday dinner and cake...

what i would like to tell you is....

the clock keeps on tickling...

people keeps on ageing...

including you and me...

"Time wait for no man,we just have to accept that..."

even if i spread my wings and fly away from you

please do not worry

because im always belong to home

and im still the same little girl in your heart

Sshhh~

happy birthday!!ah kit~~

haha~mostly my wushu gang...

friends,please keep this as a secret as im not supposed to be blogging here...

im now suffering from some kinda brain trauma but still unable to clear all my homework "debts"...

furthermore,i have spent the whole day studying REPRODUCTION AND DEVELOPMENT...

quite an interesting topic but also hard to stick everything in my mind...

wheww...anyway...whatever happens...i'll always show my usual beam and say :"Aiya~be steady!"...that's what my dad taught me...wakaka^^

well...i have been here for nearly a week now...been really busy catching up the topics our lecturer had taught during CNY holiday...besides,our indians community here will be holding a Ponggal Festival which really needs some helping hands from us chinese(there are only 18 indians here you see...)so...in conclusion...during this whole week...apart from studying,i was also busy helping our indian friends...and at the same time preparing for our own CNY Festival performances,which are wushu performance and mini ochestra...i just hope everything to be end soon so that i can study in peace...don't misunderstood me...im totally enjoying everything...especially when you get some compliments for the performance that you are in-charged of...and when you found that you are not the only one who care about the performance but everybody else also did...that kinda feeling is really indescribable and satisfying...