Wednesday, November 26, 2014

HO life

HI WORLD! :D

its been a long while! Well i guess when life gets so comfortable it never trigger your creative part of your brain to work & write... As expected, holiday after i passed my final MD exam was a bliss. Been travelling with my uni besties to Vietnam & Cambodia, also spent some quality time for meditation retreats. Nevertheless, most of the sweetest time were spent with my beloved family. However, life is not forever a bed of roses, when the time has come we move on to the next phase of life=working!

To be honest, I love my job. Been feeling so much alive after started working. I knew from the very beginning that a doctor's job isn't easy, but i never imagined it to be this tough! Those stories that i thought were rumours are actually quite true. During the first 2 weeks of so called "tagging" period, we work for 17 hours a day. Most of the days we didn't get the chance to have lunch/dinner simply because the ward works were never been finished. Yea I learnt how to write faster, to jog instead of walk, to talk faster, to poke veins more accurately & suck the blood out the speediest way. Those were not been easy to me, since im the kinda person who prefer to work at my own pace steadily calmly peacefully. One can never stops learning isn't it? :)

Of course, it takes much love & courage to work in this profession. A patient who came in with burnt wound was yelling in pain, when you tried to clean & debride the wound, he yelled so much louder. Sometimes, we just have to be stone-hearted for our patient's sake. It is so important to stay calm & complete our procedure fast. I tried my best to care for my patients, when i cannot stop their pain, at least i can offer some comfort by holding their hands.

There isn't any existence of the perfect job in this world. Its up to you to perceive it that whether your job is great or sucks. I received negative emotions/comments/words, but i also learnt much from them. So far im utmost thankful to have really helpful colleagues & bosses that were willing to teach & tolerate my mistakes.

Thats all for this time, gotta rest before starting my night shift followed by another morning shift. For my fellow colleagues & university mates, may we work with positive mind filled with love & care each day! :D

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Preparing my mind for exam

Its kinda hard to believe that it's actually less than 1 month away from our final MD exam! People around me, including myself has started to become panic & insecure these times. Its really nice to hear from our phase coordinator that we no need to worry too much, that we've already been studying for 5 years! We have studied enough, man~ The knowledge is actually just around the corner of your brain. Just relax...And hopefully the 2 weeks of study weeks will be enough for us to organize and extract out what we've learnt in these 5 years. Being panic is not productive. For me, the only way of being productive is when I enjoy talking with patients, learn and read about their illness when i get back to my room. Then I realised that the keyword is to ENJOY. Love what you're doing, enjoy what you're reading.

Professional 3 exam may sounds terrifying on its own. But so often, everybody is scared because we're actually creating our own fear. We create horrible scenes in the future within our own mind. We tend to think about how BAD things might happen. Instead of thinking of how WELL things might turn out to be!

Here comes our last week to be spent in the ward, stress-free, learning from our patients without bearing any responsibility or fear of any consequences that might cost a person's life. During this last week as a medical student, hopefully all of us can still enjoy learning medicine!^^

Till we meet next time, just would like to remind myself and my fellow batchmates...

ALWAYS HAVE HOPE AND FAITH IN OURSELVES
BELIEVE THAT THINGS WILL TURN OUT ALRIGHT

BEST OF LUCK

Saturday, April 12, 2014

are you the prisoner of your mind?

Everybody faces crisis at some points of their lives
You're not the only one

Break the cage and get out!
From the prison of the past
for there's no point of lamenting over the history

Break out!
From the prison of the future
Stop being anxious and worried about everything that have yet to come
for it's IMPOSSIBLE to predict what is going to happen

Break out!
From the prison of your own perception
You're imprisoning yourself as long as you're perceiving
that you deserve a better somewhere/somebody/something

So, take a deep breath
enjoy the present moment
live life NOW to the fullest potential


Thursday, January 2, 2014

happy 2014 ^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

The past is the past
The future has yet to come
The present is the only moment worth living

As usual, im setting my rule of living 2014:

  1. Always put my heart & energy onto the present moment.
  2. Learn to take myself as my own refuge, stop relying my happiness on others.
  3. Listen to my heart, and be ME, despite of current society's norm/expectation.
  4. Be honest and truthful to myself and others.
  5. Have compassion towards everybody.
  6. Be responsible for my own action, speech and thinking.
  7. Be humane, upright & virtuous in terms of action, speech and thinking.

Sincerely wishing everybody a fruitful year ahead :)