Friday, September 25, 2009

this is cruel


well...here comes the day where i need to return to the life which i belonged to
well...i don't feel like sleeping tonight yet i feel like to treasure my last night sleep on my comfy bed
well...this is cruel
idon'twannaleavehome!!!

but if im seeing this in a slightly different perspective...
returning to my university campus may not be a bad thing afterall as im living the life of a pig at home...
im living more like a human in the campus!!hahax~

anyway...i did cherish my short-term withdrawal from a medic student's life very much and im feeling sooo fully-recharged and reenergised after this!!^^
gonna have muchmuchmuch more energy to face whatever obstacle that is thrown to me...
c'mon babe!!XP

Hhmm~wonder why i didn't update my bloggie during the hols??because a pig's life is not worth to be told...hahax!!anyway...just in case you're interested...
piggy ate ALOT!!!ipoh's food are simply irresistable!!gosh...gotta exercise more when i return to campus...hehehe
piggy went to the cinema to watch "UP" and it was a touching animation indeed!i planned to watch "FINAL DESTINATION 4" butbutbut it stopped showing the day i wanted to watch it!!a tiny regret for this holsTT
piggy bought her very first dinner dress...if not it's for the function for chinese in the uni i will never ever get my hands on those dresses...i never like this kinda formal function though butbutbut my dress is kinda pretty!:)
piggy went to have steamboat dinner with 17 secondary school classmates...it was sooo nice to meet 'em!!
piggy went for exercises too!!my dad brought us to a park every morning and i'll jog there...thank god i still get to exercise!if not..i afraid i'll turn into a sumo!!hahax
piggy spent most of her hols nagging her daddy...XD....why??i have my own reason...hohoho!!
piggy spent so much time on shopping too!but i just shop,i don't really buy...good girl huh?^^
piggy cut her hair and she likes her new hairstyle very much!!i used to think a lot during hols on whether i should cut my hair or should i let it grow longer,but finally i decided not to think about it anymore because i'll sure be cutting it in the end...HAHA



~photography session~

my beloved daddy and mummy...we were having our luxurious dinner...yumyum!!


hhmm~~the food we had...nice!!


our mouth-watering dessert...
 


 the little birthday present i prepared for one of my best pals in ipoh...i only used 15minutes to wrap it!!nice??haha!!happy birthday rou wei!!!good luck for your trial stpm and the most important of all,the real stpm exam!!!**jiayou!!
 

Friday, September 18, 2009

post-exam syndrome

hi world!
first and foremost...
im going to give you guys a big BIG =D
'cz im now sitting in front of the plasma tv set in my house...
feeling peacefully blissfully and free-of-worries!!

well...
as i've promised im going to update a more proper post this time...

***

i remember once my uncle told me
"medical students must have buttock power..."
"why?"i asked...
"because being a medical student, you gotta accept the fact that you gotta stick to your chair all the time to studystudystudy and memorisememorisememorise..."

i doubted it as first...
i thought i will never be that kinda person who will just sit there and study the whole day long...
because im kinda playful and easily bored and end up "fishing" whenever i study for a long period of time...
but after preparing and sitting for my first term exam...
*clearing my throat
-the fact is just too hard to be denied-

i don't intend to make any fussings here, merely think that it's an experience worth sharing...
XP

***

i'd like to share a quick glance of my life a few days right before my first term medical examination in USM...during that few days, our lectures on the last topic, MUSCULOSKELETON have completed so basically we don't need to attend classes anymore except for English and Japanese classes(pity me gotta attend both of them.TT)apart from that, most of the time we'll be staying in our tiny cramped congested oxygen-lacking room to...S.T.U.D.Y

my schedule was roughly illustrated as below:
0800-first alarm clock rings
0815-second alarm clock rings+wake up+quick bath+dashing breakfast
0845-my study marathon starts
1100-quick lunch break
1130-study
1800-dinner break
1830-study
0300-collapse

so what do you think?...well, i think i might've turned crazy...HAHA!!and i usually have biscuits for my breakfast, more biscuits for my lunch and rice for my dinner with moremoremore biscuits during the midnight...im not ashamed to tell you that i did experience some emotional breakdown at the beginning of the study week, but im lucky enough to have my family's full support and love which managed to pull me up from drowning...im feeling utmost thankful and grateful for that!=)

what my uncle told  me was definitely true indeed! medical students do need to possess a special ability, named THE ENOURMOUS GLUTEAL MAXIMUS a.k.a BUTTOCK POWER...wakaka!!we got a whole mountain-high stack of lecture notes to be read and almost every pages contain important facts that need to be memorised! it seems that everything that is mentioned in the lecture notes are important and that even every diagrams, pictures and microscopic slides need to be recognised and must be stuck in your brain as they will definitely be coming out for the Data Interpretation paper. as for me, the muscles part is still the most challenging one as i was really facing serious problem in memorising them. yup!i can remember them firmly right after i memorised, but if you are asking me the next day, i'll either be spending long time to recall or been unable to recall AT ALL! at some point i was really frustrated and disappointed at myself as i can see people having good brains wasting no effort at all to memorise all the muscle names, attachments and innervation and that they will never forget what they've memorised,unlike me...and this was the reason of the emoitonal breakdown i mentioned...as what my father told me...my soft spot is always losing myself to myself...since i was a toddler...i used to compare, even i said i don't want to.i used to be frustrated,angry of myself and sad after i lose to someone, even i said i didn't...i know it takes time to change this behaviour of mine, and i hope im working it out towards correction.wish me luck!^^

LUCKILY!!!
after talking to my parents i felt kinda woken up...studies and memorisations have become much more easy and efficient...but yet the process was still suffering. imagine your life only consists of eat,sleep and study...that's my life during that few days. it's not that im lazy to go out to excercise but i really don't have time for that.i slept for only max 5 hrs everyday,despite my usual >7hrs...and i didn't take any naps, if i did, i will only rest my head on my arms for the most 15 minutes...my pimples grow "wildly" on my forehead!!mainly due to sleep-lacking and stress i think...andandand...luckily i have a nice roommate,geok xin whom i can talk to whenever i feel too tired to study, we shared some laughters and fun though...simply talking nonsense and gossiping others...XP...

at the end of the story, all my efforts ended on the 3 hrs exam...an hour for every paper each day...if im asked to rate my performance during the exam, i will only give myself 50%...i did many stupid careless mistakes even the papers are actually considered easy...but i will never regret though for i knew that i've tried my best to memorise everything, i covered all the lecture notes, i felt well-prepared before entering the exam hall...i'll give myself 99% for my preparation, and if i didn't compare myself to the others,if i can concentrate more during the beginning and didn't experience any emotional stress, i'll give myself 100%...anyway...i'll see that as an important element of my life, i learnt something from that, and THIS, i believe, is the most important thing of all...though passing the exam is not everything, i do hope i can pass, really...some people may think that: who are you now?where have all your spirits gone?...for they know me, they know my quest for perfection...and i just wanna tell you guys that: my spirit is always there, and im not going to lose it easily...and i'll never ever give up, no matter how stupid am i compared to others, i will never lose my spirit.it's not that i've losen my grip towards my quest, it's just that i don't wanna be too possessed by them, it's simply too tiring...and after i thought for quite a long time, i choose to believe what most people been telling me, that is what makes a good doctor is not how he or she did well during their MD exams, it's their skills that matters, their hearts towards sick people, their empathy and enthusiasim in this profession to serve human beings...

*jiayoujiayou!!
:)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

vivian's returning

wow!let's see what day is today?...
its 17th september 2009!!
and i've finally...FINALLY...
M.E.R.D.E.K.A
from my first term exam in USM!!!


as i've promised...
i'll update my bloggie today...
this post is merely an appetiser consisting of purely pics and simple descriptions...
more and MORE posts will be coming soon...
so stay tuned!
♥.♥



~DRUMS ROLLING~
my voice is passed to the pics below which illustrate my study and exam week in USM





first and foremost...THIS is the amount of lecture notes that i need to conquer and had conquered for my first term medical doctor exam in USM...Atlas of Human Anatomy & Lippincott's Biochemstry not included yet!...kinda feel proud of myself because i had never studied THIS much before in my lifetime=)



this is one of the weird thingy in human's body that i need to memorise...THE TRIANGLES OF NECK...what are the contents,roof,floor,anterior,posterior,lateral,medial boundaries again???








and THIS is one of the prettiest note i made myself...guess what is this??cross section of beef?pork?wrongwrongwrong...this is our NECK!







i secretly caught this pic of my roommate's cubicle...
sshhh~its sooo "tidy"...^^








thisthisthis...is my cubicle...it looked really tidy huh compared to my roommate's....my mum should be really happy and proud of me!hahax=D



that time was 3am and i was totally exhausted but yet still need to carry on with my revision...ugly?i knew...with dark circles and eye bags and "aunty hairclip"...XP



this pic was taken by around 2am...geok xin was sooo attentive until she didn't even know that i caught pics of her...this is the way we sudy anatomy...pointing on our own arms while memorising...hahax!





Hhmm...i never introduce her to you guys before right?she's my malay roommate, sarah..she's taking diploma in nursing and this was taken during her first day in ward training...





my best friend appears again!!this shows the first sign of his owner's craziness due to brain-strain...HAHA





my favourite mug given by my mum...keeps me accompanied and awake throughout the study week...greentea is my favourite!!^^


andandand...THIS is the special one...chocolate-flavoured mooncake!!keeps geok xin & i motivated to study more!!lol~



the view from my hostel's window..it's kinda nice with trees around...



ooyea...geok xin bought a rice-cooker to cook instant noodles!!extremely useful whenever we feel lazy to buy food at the cafeteria...especially we're staying at the highest floor...me lazy bumbum!!=P


and lastly...my favourite Beryl's almond dark chocolate!!she stabilizes my moodswings, stimulate my brain and memory, and give me some kinda positive feelings whenever i feel drowned and depressed!!magical huh??



Wednesday, September 2, 2009

before i off...

the little world o' mine rains today...

***

the trial MCQ exam result is finally released...
and i...
F.A.I.L.E.D

err...im not tremendously upset...
but it's hard to deny that i did care about my failure...
especially for the "highly-sensitive-to-failures" me...
so it's like a tiny needle that pricks into my heart...
not deeply but superficially...
but yet you can feel its presence...

for once in my lifetime...
i only aim for passing this first term exam, really...
not more than that...
because my instinct tells me that it's not easy to pass too!!
confidence?im lacking...

and i've actually decided this will be the last post before my first term exam...
after this i'll be freezing you for 2 weeks or so...
so that i can fully concentrate on my revision...

little reminder for myself♥♥♥ remember the pain so that it can stimulate you to work harder...its better if you fail the trial exam than you fail the real term exam...so please DON'T be upset anymore...stay strong and determined!like you always did!=)

see ya on 17th september!!

ps...happybirthdaytounclexiaohuang!!!
mayhappinessbewithyouforeverandalways!!!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

before i sleep...

Ohaiyo Gozaimasu!^^
good morning everybody...
let's see what's the time now...
Hhmm~
it's 2.29am...
and yea...
im still well-awake...
thanks to Ipoh Oldtown Hazelnut Instant White Coffee...
=)

through this midnight oil-burning session...
i finished chewing...
gluteal region(your buttock)
joints of upper limbs
O.N.L.Y
i hope that i can study more efficiently than i did...==

for upcoming lectures...
i'll be having...
leg and foot
joints of lower limbs
scalp, face and temporal region

W.O.W
i wonder how am i going to survive in these upcoming lectures...
one can only hope...

okay!it's 2.36am now...
and im going to force myself to fall asleep even i don't feel like it...
gotta recharge my body fully so that i can be lively as a monkey in the next day!!
hoho~what a weird description...

oyasumi nasai~