my sweetheart♥candy

~~VIVIAN PROUDLY PRESENT~~

♥CANDY♥

today is sunday...its time to...BATH!!

wash wash wash...washing her head...ooo...look at her expression><

"I HATE BATHING!!"

ooo...facial massage...am i in a spa?...@@

say HI to the camera dear...yeah~

take your hand and water off me~~

wheww...finished finally...oh gosh...I HATE IT

i flip!flip!flip!

its time to sun-bathe...

sorry...can't stand the itchiness...gotta flip again~she looked like a polar bear in this picture...doesn't she?

finally~after sun-bathing and grooming...she SMILES!!*bling

=)

The Time Machine

walking in a time-tunnel

i travel back to my secondary school days

things have changed a lot

me either

C'mon...it's just a pair of Nike~

sob sob...TT

my pair of Nike shoes...

where are you????????

Emptiness

"someday,
sometime,
somewhere,
someone cares..."

clearing my luggage
looking at my old books and notes
reading what my buddies wrote for me in my b'day card
looking at all those pictures that we have took together
listening to songs that we both shared likeliness

these are the things that i did today

a strange feeling gripped my soul
a feeling of emptiness
plus a little bit of loneliness

i pondered long enough
only to find out that i belong to nowhere
somewhere in between maybe...

i don't like to start anew
but i have always been forced to
changing and adapting
adapted and then forced to change
the cycle repeats
the law of surviving
this could be...

once again
my adapting mode is switched on
life without friends circulating
how would it be?
i wonder...
dull and colourless
it should be...

helpless,
yet i can't do anything
time is irreversible
there's no use of crying over spilt milk
i do not feel regret though
as i've foreseen this long before
and therefore keep on reminding myself to cherish
but...
still...
i.miss.you

It's time to go...TT

170409
i will remember this such special day
the day when we finally finished our final examination of the matriculation programme
luckily we were allowed to stay for one more night to sit for the USM test on the following day
so...no goodbye's...so...smile=)
we had barbeque farewell party+birthday party during that night...
well, i called this a special day because i did something that i've never did before
i couldn't sleep well that night...
partly because of the korean ghost movie that we watched before we went to bed...
and, mostly because of....
i will remember

180409
the day when we leave KMPh...
the place that we have stayed and studied and made friends for 10 months...
i already knew that this day would finally come and that i promised that i will not shed a single tear...
but i never knew that it would really be that heart-breaking...
especially when all my close friends came and bid goodbye to me...
fooling around with my parents...
they are all real,true friends...
friends that only knew each other within a few months time but yet we are so close...
this is a day that is full of hugs, handshakes, goodbye's and well...tears

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specially dedicated to:

*s.y.b--my dear in KMPh...thanks for keeping me accompanied throughout this programme...so lucky to have you as my classmate...& of course, my best pal in KMPh

*t.p.c--i just need you to promise me to take good care of yourself...thanks for those chattings that once started, seemed to be never-ending...

*c.l.c--you are undeniably one of my best friends made in KMPh...thanks for your accompaniments when i study till turned numb...thanks for everything that you have did for me...

*y.c.y--thanks for taking care of me and sharing notes with me throughout the programme...and...thanks for the blood that had flowed for me & s.y.b...^^

*s.z.h--thanks for never giving up on our friendship and caring so much for me...

*y.c.p--thanks for giving me such a nice memory in KMPh...

*l.j--thanks for being one of my sweet friend in KMPh...thanks for all your helpings during my studies...

*a.p.s--thanks for all those late-night-chattings, opinions, views and advices...you are indeed a friend worth treasured of...

*j.n.w.s--thanks for keeping me accompanied for those clinic visits...and thanks for your care...

PS, for those friends that are not named here, please do not feel unhappy...you guys are important friends to me too and i treasured y'all a lotz...really...it would take years for me to list all of you here^^

reflection

Though it was only as short as 3 weeks time that i've frozen my blog
yet there were many events, too many important events that happened at the same time
well...let me think...
just like a machine gun, those things just keep shooting into my life

*4th april*
my 18th birthday...
im "legally 18th" finally...yeah~~
thanks to all my friends...
although the final examination was only one week away, yet they were willing to spend their time to celebrate my birthday...
it was really the most memorable birthday in my life, i could say...
a birthday party that was held far away from home--astaka KMPh
i really appreciate all my friends' efforts, especially my dear's effort{you know who you are!!^^}
i will never ever forget my special 18th birthday!!
ooyea~
there was something special happened on my "birthday eve" too...
the day when 6 of us keeps on chatting non-stop on the roadside...
until 1am and got chased away by felo...
hahax...such an adventure!!@@

*study week*
again, the historic moment repeats...
a non-stop marathon of study, study and study...
well, i've broken my own record though...i managed to stay up and study until--4am!!
but believe it or not...
most of my friends actually managed to stay up until the following morning...
==crazy==
and well...i gained some weight during this study week...
the main cause was that i used to chew something{biscuits usually} to keep myself awake while im studying...
insufficient sleep+enormous peer pressure+chewing biscuits=pimples

*exam week*
as an average...i studied until 1am and woke up at 5am to study again and this went on for 5 days!!!
well...im not going to comment on any of those papers as they are overed...
the most important thing that i've tried my best...so...no regrets!!^^