MERDEKA!!!

OMG~

im feeling so alive now

feel more like a normal person than a reading zombieXD

YAY~~~

can't believe i've finally finished my Professional 1 MD Exam!!!

can't believe i've managed to stop blogging for 3 whole weeks!!

and you know what...

i really got loads to tell,loads to share^^

No.1

when i was away from the world of electronic diary,i turned 19,silently and secretly...hehe^^...because my birthday actually fell on the first day of the onset of our study weeksTTsame thing happened during my matriculation times...well,i had a nice celebration with my friends though but i wasn't realise that they were actually planning for a great fool!!i woke up in the morning at 11am...the first sip of water from my water bottle tasted sweet and i thought it was my taste buds' malfunctioning...my roomie slept till 2pm that day which i thought was acceptable since she used to study late...i walked all way round under the sun to go photostat but the shop was closed during the normal business hour...i noticed the sun was still hanging high up in the sky though it was already 6.30pm!!!well,i went to jog anyway but i felt my skin was burning under the sun...finally,only i felt that something went wrong,i phoned my mum,and she told me that it was only 4.30pm!!!HAHAHA!!!this is definitely the most memorable birthday i ever had,though i was a lil pissed off at first,but i really gotta salute to my 38 gang's effort.They managed to hack my laptop's password and changed the time,they changed each and every watches of mine,my alarm clock and my roomie's clocks as well,which made everything feel so real!!!their conclusion was:vivian is way too easy to be cheated...and that's for my unusual birthday^^

No.2

in my 19 years of life...i studied for countless tests and major exams...PTS...UPSR...PMR...SPM...PSPM...but i never felt such immense pressure before...i felt like i was always in  race with time,trying to read as much notes as i can while memorising as much as i can,in the same time keep on forgetting what i've memorised...i keep on adjusting my revision schedule to make sure that i can finish every notes before entering the exam hall...in fact,i managed to finish my notes 2 days before the "Judgement Day"...but i can't seem to remember much things as i started the revision from 2 months ago!!i was panic,really,though i didn't show it...sometimes,i can suddenly feel like crying without any reason...sometimes,my heart rate can suddenly become irregular until i gotta take some time to take in and breath out deeply then only i can resume my time-chasing...i needed lots of motivation so that i can carry on...and so i did so many stupid thingy like i will leave an extra note on my dekstop after every block i've read through...and i called home more than usual,talking to my mum always make me feel sooo better,though i gotta apologise 'cz i was easily irritated during those stressed periods...

No.3

Kelantan is really the hottest place i've ever been!!!my room was really suffocating until i gotta walk out of it to get some fresh air...so i gained the habit of holding a set of lecture note and a pen,and then i will walk to and fro the corridor of my hostel,sometimes sitting at my favourite corner near the stairs,where there will be breezes blowing and you'll manage to "survey" which extra couples have arised in USMkk from the view upstair heheXPthe moment i finished bathing i sweat,even my private fan was blowing directly onto me!!THIS,definitely affected my input during studying and  thus contributed to my tension level...





No.4

do you guys know that my whole family actually came and visited me during the 2nd week of study weeks??...i was sooo happy to see 'em and  had a nice hangout with 'em for 2 days,but with consequences paid...the day when they left and went home,i got severe diarrhoea and vomit...since my chinese roomie went home for that week,means i was the only inhabitant in my room,plus the suffering illness,i was feeling extra alone,and an extreme homesickness...plus i didn't have energy to study for the entire 2 days following my illness,which also contributed to my extra tension...anddd guess what,during the final study week,just few days before my exam,i got another round of vomiting again!!!and it was more serious than the previous one because i loss my apetite entirely...tension tension and tension!!!that time,when i called my mum and when my daddy called,i cried...

No.5

medical students are too scary!!!especially during study weeks,and when the time's getting nearer to the exam...they will acquire an extremely desperate nature...i'll try to explain it in a more simple way: when Peter gave an apple to Jane,someone saw it and he told all his friends about that,then all the people will find Peter to get apples from him...im anti-desperate because i hate it but i know that it's an essential component of survival...how sad it is...ooyea...besides that...i received hundreds of messages about tips given by lecturers,phase coordinators,seniors blahblahblah...in the end,after each and every paper,you'll find out that none of it came out,those are merely misleading guides that intended to lead you into failure...wait!don't blame your friends who sent it to you 'cz they were just out of good intention,blame those evil-hearted people who created those fake tips!!!

No.6

my cooking skills developed during the study week though...now im good at cooking barley,red bean and green bean soup...hehe!!the purpose of cooking is to release tension...2nd is to provide as my lunch or dinner...how pathetic!!staying in USMkk is still as pathetic as the first week i entered...except few changes that are made,such as the new Mydin shopping mall that is newly built just opposite to our campus...and a few more newly opened kopitiams and cafes...

No.7

regarding the exam...i just gotta say that i've really really really tried my best in every papers,so no regrets!!but i know i didn't really perform well as i used to,i mean i think i didn't utilize my whole potential,it's just beyond my control,eg:my memory...i was deeply frustrated by my performance in the first essay paper where those hot and major topics didn't come out,in contrast,the most UNUSUAL topic:amino acid catabolism came out as the 9th question!!!so i gotta admit that i didn't really attempted the paper well...i was quite satisfied with the 2nd essay paper though^^but for the OSPE...wow!!!challenging is what i can say...they just pointed out the smallest,unnoticed nerves in the neck and asked you to name it...well im fairly satisfied with it as well...MCQ1 was more challenging than MCQ2...myself is to be blamed 'cz i didn't manage to flip through all notes before MCQ1...in general,i'll say that im only confidence enough to pass,but not scoring high...good or bad?=)

Hhmmm~

i think my list should end here,if not my readers will sure be bored to death...the most important thingy is...im a totally free soul now!!!for 2 months~i'll be free from notes and USMkk!!wakaka^^can't wait to go home...i wanna bake cookies and muffins with mummy...i miss mum's cooking terribly!!and i miss my buddies in Ipoh...not to forget my 2 doggies as well...but im gonna stay here for 1 week,just to wait for our result,which will be out on 6th May...wish everybody luck and me myself as well!!!^^

owh i really gotta sleep now...

tired playing for the whole day since finished todays's MCQ2 on 10.40am...

hehe^^

see you guys very soon...

nitez~