on new year eve

Hi world:D
wonder why everybody's talking bad about 2011


i mean...
it couldn't be THAT bad right?
bad memories give us lifelong lessons
nice memories give us something sweet to savour
and im grateful that when i look back 
i recalled more smiles than tears


So, its another last day of the year. And im stuck at my campus as usual. Tonight's gonna join a Buddhist activity outside campus though, at least my new year eve is occupied by a much meaningful activity than reading lecture notesX)


Hhmmm, it has always been my habit of jotting down new year resolutions. And i've just took a glimpse on my last year's resolution. Interestingly, im actually thinking of reuse and recycling most of them to be this year's resolution, maybe just need some modifications. Will updates with you guys once i've figured it out:)


Before publishing the final list of new year resolution, i have one, just ONE little wish for the upcoming year...


~I wish to live a happier, purposeful life


ONE more...hehe


~I wish for good health and happiness to my loved ones, esp my family

Lastly,

DEAR READERS

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

MAY EVERYBODY BE BLESSED WITH A MORE JOYFUL YEAR AHEAD

=)

dearest 2011,

thanks for the memories

but i won't linger around you anymore

will be starting my life anew with enthusiasm and hope!!! 

a weekend retreat

*beaming with joy*

will be heading home tonight!!!
gonna celebrate Winter Solstice and also Christmas with my beloved family this year!!!


although i only have 3 precious days to be spent with my family
but its more than enough to cure my homesickness


and im gonna take this opportunity to take a break from my studies
sometimes when you're too occupied in doing the same damn thing everyday
you tend to forget the ultimate reason why you're doing it
and you'll see life as a meaningless one


promised that i'll return on monday as a brand new me
living with passion and compassion
love towards people
and never, ever forget my hope and dream

wishing my dear readers

Merry Christmas

&

冬至快乐

=)

choose happiness

I'm not perfect.

Usually, I won't reveal much of my inner thoughts in this cyberspace but somehow today i feel like doing so. Simply because there's no reason why i shouldn't. Those who don't care won't give a damn on what I'm trying to tell here, whilst those who are my beloved family and friends will get to know more about this girl.

Yes, as what I've told, I'm not perfect. Although I always give false impressions to others that I seems so, I just don't know why. The fact is, you guys just can't see beneath this shimmery glittery surface of mine.

Most of the time, I'm drowning in my own pool of self-pityness. I blame the whole universe but myself for being stuck in this jungle of nowhere for pursuing Medicine, forgetting that it's actually my own choice. I chose my dream of becoming a doctor, I'm pursuing my dream, only thing is that I'm not feeling happy, and I blame it on this place, of being way too far from home, of being too rural, too "malays", too scarce of food etc etc. In the end of the day, I choose to feel miserable, neglecting that there's another choice called happiness.

Sometimes, I may even blame myself for choosing this dream, especially when I'm too stressed and worn out of energy from studying. I never deny that I love the knowledge I gained in the field of Medicine, just that the journey can be so tiring and never-ending. And that made me question myself: why do i choose this spiky stony road? Again, in the end of the day, I choose to feel miserable, forgetting the joy of knowledge seeking, and putting aside my life goal of saving people from illness and sufferings.

I'm such a bad girl, whenever i call and tell my parents about my misery. I knew I shouldn't do so, but I just can't control myself. I love my parents a lot. Calling home should be a warm and happy thing to do, but because of my bad habit, I feel even worse after talking to my parents because it further aggravates my homesickness. I'm feeling so bad for creating pressure to my parents because I keep on telling them how sad and stressed and miserable I am and how much I miss them...

Life offers us choices. 

You can choose to feel miserable and make your life difficult, 

or you can choose happiness and make your life easier.

And today, I'm courageous enough to tell you guys my story because I've decided to make a choice. Yes, I want to choose happiness. It's not easy to break the bad habit and make such a huge change within a short time, I need determination and by taking baby steps, I hope I can transform the rain into sunshine within no time. Meanwhile, I just need to remind myself from time to time. 

"Choose Happiness" 

wish me luck

;)

most memorable part of my interesting medical student life

although its only been a week since i posted my last entry

i feel like centuries!!!

dunno why~

most probably due to the hectic week i guess

so how's everyone?

=]

as what i told ya... my last whole week were sooo packed, like canned sardinesX)... anyway, im glad that i made it through. So, to summarize(so that dear readers you won't "X" my blog^^), the main event of my 3rd year in this university has finally ended, quite successfully i would say, which is the Intervarsity Wushu Championship. There were lots of preparations, quarrels, sweats and tears but the most important thing is that at the end of the day, when we think back what we did, that will bring smiles on your face=)... And i think we've made a good impression of our Wushu Club to other universities too, as most of their feedbacks are the positive ones...

Well, right after that event, after the hustle and bustle of cleaning and tidy up the mess, the day after, was our turn to revisit our village for our CFCS Intervention Programmes, and this time, its no laughing matter, cz we need to stay at a foster parents' home for 5 days!!! I just gotta admit that i was feeling quite worried+anxious, cz although im not that princess-sy, im still having my own intolerance over certain things. Anyhow, i tried to believe in my coping and adapting skill, and eventually things turned out good^^

if it wouldn't be my stolen faves crocs shoes...and the cockroaches and ants in my room at my foster parents' house, i would say that things were GREAT!!!X)

  

lets enjoy some snapshots from our CFCS programme!!!

which consists of activities such as house-to-house visit for educate and poster-distribution, family day, health screening, talks and forums, taiji practice sessions etc etc...

our objective was to educate the villagers on living a healthy lifestyle by exercising and eating healthily, in order to reduce obesity^^

my mak angkat and ayah angkat...and also another 2 malay friends who were staying in the same family with me...

my first meal with my keluarga angkat...a noble lunch cooked by all of us together...

ps,i was in-charged of the vege^^

various kuih prepared by my mak angkat...she ROCKSSSS at making kuihs!!!hehe

the pretty girl on the right with brown shirt is my adik angkat...on free time,she brought us to some sight-seeings around the kampung and this nice unpolluted river

besides, i've also tried many things that i've never even heard before, such as cooking "bubur asyura"

 the end product of bubur asyura after stirring non-stop from 8am-5pm...

ingredients: rice,water,corn,beef,red bean,green bean,gula melaka,sugar,various spices,curry,coconut milk,blended onion,chilis and garlics...

sounded weird, but surprisingly, it tasted quite good!

*on individual preference

we invited one of our lecturer in USMkk, Dr Ang to teach the villagers to practice taiji...

 some of the games played during the Family Day...

cooking demonstration and competition...our objective was to teach the villagers how to cook their food in the healthy way by reducing the usage of oil, sugar and salt...

colouring competition