flammable

im really,really lucky to have a lovely parents who always inject positive values and thinkings into my veins since i was young...

im of utmost grateful for that=)

for example,my dad taught me this:

never try to hate anyone

as everybody has their positive and negative characters

if you could just ignore those negative aspects

and try to only focus on the positive ones

then you will see angels everywhere!

:)

nice right?...

and after listening to what my dad taught me,i try my best to not to hate anyone...if i can't help but dislike that person,i'll try not to HATE...i try to be good and kind and friendly to everyone...and i think i did quite a good job on that^^

but,papa,i think im facing a challenge now,the first after all these years...

obviously i won't tell you guys who's the culprit here... 

what i can tell you here is that

its really,really hard for me to tolerate this kinda person

he(or she) is capable of making me angry,really,really angry

and although i knew that i shouldn't be angry because this is kinda self-destroying

but this is something that i really,really not able to control

he can make me explode,really...

E.X.P.L.O.D.E

the saddest fact is that...

i have to explode for almost everyday

till...

till...

nah~im not supposed to tell you this because the more i tell,

the more you'll be able to guess the culprit...

haha

don't ask me what i intend to do with this person...

because i haven't figure it out yet

in the meantime,i'll just try to change him(or her) into a better person

if miracle does exist

help

help

help

HELP!!!

ps...counting down 11 days more to go home,i miss my daddy mummy very much♥and also my younger sis and bro...hope they're studying hard for their upcoming public examinations...hey,do you read this or not???XD

love.care.empathy

this few days really meant a lot to me

during my journey of pursuing my dream

:)

i went to clerk my first ever patient

because its my turn to do case presentation to doctor and my group members in tomorrow's PBL session...

senior told us this when he was briefing us regarding History Taking and Physical Examination:

"although the patient that you clerked may considered as a case to you,but DO NOT EVER treat them as a subject,treat them as a multi-emotional human being,do not cause unnecessary pain to them and most importantly,appreciate their cooperation..."

well he was definitely right but i wonder how many of us could actually apply this in real situation?...

and so with senior's advices and lots of studying from books and lecture notes... i wore my white coat, brought my stethoscope,pen torch and my clerking board...i entered the hospital with a malay girl coursemate so that she can help me by translating those "kelate" words and be my chaperone...when we reach the ward we started to look for patients with respiratory diseases and after much picking,we approached a very old Malay man,he was unable to talk clearly and so i did history taking by asking his daughter-in-law...it turns out that the poor,old man actually been admitted to the hospital for more than 2 weeks time and he kept on telling me that he just wanna go home,so i consoled him,asked him to rest well...due to his ill condition that time,i just couldn't bear to perform Physical Examination on him and so i only returned to him on the next day to do PE,and it was yesterday...his condition has improved so much when i met him yesterday,and after asking permission from his son,quite surprisingly,they actually allow me to do PE without much asking!

well,it was my first time performing PE myself on a real patient of mine,so i was undeniably nervous,but after talking a few words with the old man,touching him while consoling him,feeling his warm,fragile body heaving up and down slowly beneath my touching,and he expressed gratitude to me for caring him,i could feel the confidence building inside me,this is the magic of the bonding i think=)

i'll only give myself 40% for my first clerking...but the experience and things i earned from it,it would be definitely 100%...i just hope that i didn't cause any unnecessary pain or discomfort to the old man...its really hard for me to convey to you guys how i felt at that moment when i was clerking...when i touched him and looked at his face,i totally forgot about the difference of skin colors between us,we are all the same,as fragile as ever...and when i saw him experiencing shortness of breath and trying to gulp in as many air as he could,i just feel like i could give up anything just to make him feel better,i can feel my love and care towards him,although i only got to know him for 1 day...this feeling was so magical...and when i was finish,i just wish that i could stay longer with him until he actually gets better...but,returning back to reality,i knew i should leave and let him rests...

this is the magical experience of mine...

the magical feeling...

the magical bonding...

this is what keeps me motivated♥

patience...

4 weeeeeks!!!

you just need to wait for 28 days 

then you'll be going home....

home,home,HOME

all i need now is patience...

our Respiratory Block lasts for 4 weeks...

owh it's still sounded far...

T.T

im missing my doggy at home♥

haha...this pic of mine looked so psychiatric=.=

concentrate on your study...

C.O.N.C.E.N.T.R.A.T.E!!!

some motivational quotes from my senior Nicholas blog:

✿We are improving the health, not delaying the death.

✿Don't treat the disease, treat the patient.

you can do it:)

loving the way im living...

Kumar & Clark's Clinical Medicine,1343 pages

Robbins Pathology,946 pages

Talley O' Connor Clinical Examination

Chest X-Rays

Abdominal X-Rays

ECG Making Sense

Oxford Clinical Handbook(pending...)

this is the list of medical references for my phase 2 of MD

i just bought them today

say bye to $$$

lol

how am i going to finish reading all these???and how much memory spaces in my brain remaining??? 

anyway,nope im not complaining...

'cz i really love this stuff...

just not so sure about my brain capacity 

hehe

❤  ❤  ❤

my bicycle arrived few days ago!!!=D

and yep it was sent to me from home...

im still remember that it was a birthday present from my beloved grandma when i was about 12^^

and now i can cycle every evening around the campus which i enjoy sooo much!!!hehe

although it doesn't looked fancy and cool as my friend's bike...

im still loving it 'cz it was brought to me,from home:)

❤  ❤  ❤

life recently is almost perfect,despite the fact that we non-muslims have to "puasa" together with our muslim friends...so innocent=.=...practically,there are only 2 stalls in the whole campus which still sell food during lunch time but if yours starts only from 1pm,congrates!say hi to starvationXP

❤  ❤  ❤

i went to the Buddhist Society's intro night yesterday and feeling so sad and surprised that there's only few 1st years who turned up...and i heard from friends that only few medic and dental students who willing to join the performance during their Mooncake Festival Night...

pathetic...

life in university isn't only about studying...

make your life colorful!!!

don't make it black and white like your lecture notes or else you'll be regretting when you graduate...

you can be actively involve in activities too even you're future doctors or dentists you know...

stop being a bookworm!!!

stop asking about merit points gaining from every activities!!!

stop being realistic!!!

come out from your shell,LAH~

hahaha...

sorry i don't mean to yell...

just a way to release my emotion...

i wonder will there be any 1st years who read my blog and get my message???

i hope there are...

its time to bathe and prepare for my Respiratory Block starting tomorrow...

we'll be studying about pneumonia,asthma,lung cancers etc etc

let's get ready VIVIAN!!!

=)

the awesome experience of CONVEX

finally im free to blog!

=D

owh please forgive me if this post is 1km long......

because i really have much to tell(well,i always have something to tell thoughXP)...

let's get it started with chronological order kie^^

first and foremost......CONVEX!!!

Venue:USM Main Campus,Penang

Date:4-8th August

Time:9am-5pm

well,ever wondered what does Convex means???it's actually a health exhibition held every year during Convocation Week at USM Main Campus in Penang,and im one of the participant this year,in charged of Neurology Station and was the group leader of it...the whole experience was indeed unforgettable,from the preparations itself til the day we finished our 5 days exhibition...there weren't really much visitors though,i was actually expecting thousand of them but i think there were only about hundreds...firstly,im really satisfied and happy when the public thanked me for explaining to them about strokes,migraines etc and had actually told me that what i told them is really interesting,some of them even praised me for making the best explanation to them=)...however,there were also few awkward moments when the publics threw some weird questions to me which i waqsn't able to answer,the only thing i did is just telling them that:"sorry ya auntie,im only a 2nd year medical student,im not so sure about this,you better refer your problem to a doctor^^...its better this way rite??better than just "hentam" then end up telling the publics about the wrong facts...and the shame-est moment of all.....ADIK PERNAH SAKIT KELAPA TAK???...lol...after i realised about my mistake,my group members and i burst into laughter in front of that adik......aiks,my malay really sucksXP...apart from the exhibition,the 6 days journey was full of happiness,cz we went for 3 movies,ate about 5 different dishes for every meal,and also...S.H.O.P.P.I.N.G!!!hehehe

remember her???my ex-roomie geok xin♥

first day reaching their hostel cafeteria...

those main campus students are really lucky!!!their hostel looked like this,with lifts,gyms,tv room with astro,an mostly double room with adequate space...

but i really gotta say that their stair structures are weird,you can find torturous staircases everywhere,like Hogwarts^^

my station and my 3 niceeee+helpful group members^^

✿WORKING TIME✿

✿PLAYING+SHOPPING+MOVIE+EATING✿

✿VISITING TIME✿

♥HAPPY ENDING♥

=)MY SHOPPING PRODUCTS=)

anddd.......i think that's all for my Convex experience...i gained happy memories from it,got to meet my old buddies Chee Yan and Hing Yee...and this trip reminds me of my first intention of wanting to study medicine and gives me motivation when i come back to USMkk and resume my study...

Next!!!

patient clerking...

im not sure whether i can use the word "FUN" to describe it because it sounded unethical...

but i enjoy the clerking session though...there's no more study ONLY...now,im learning how to do history taking and perform physical examinations on REAL patient...fun interesting nice right?^^...i like to interact with people,listening to their stories...the only thing that i feel guilty about is that im really sympathizing those poor,sick patients whom need to answer sooo many questions from sooo many different medical students and being the "hamster" for us to do physical examinations on them...=(...for whoever that ever being used as a learning material in an university hospital,THANKS...we would be learning nothing in the absence of you...=)

FINALLY!!!

HAHA=D

today's my beloved daddy's birthday!!!!

daddy,im here to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY again!!!

♥ you forever ya

and sorry that i really have no time to make you cards and present......

ps....i wanna eat Dutch dishes toooooooo!!!!!!!!must bring me there when i come home ya hehe