sealing the memories

here comes the final day of 2009...
turning your head and looking back to the past

what would you see???

the happiest memory of mine...

i'd like to grant it to the wonderful times i spent at my matriculation college

i was being dumped into a rural area at Pahang,a place called Gambang

where my friends were from different states in M'sia

we built up strong,unbreakable bonding

together, we created a blast during CNY 2009

=D

the saddest memory of mine...

i'd choose the time when our matriculation programme ended

and everybody headed back home

indescribable feeling of losing something important in life

T.T

the most traumatized memory of mine...

it would definitely be my university application

that i got USM medicine course

happy?no.

sad?no.

dilemma?yes.

the proudest memory of mine...

without hesitate it would be Mooncake Festival 2009@USMkk

where all first years made it a great success!!

the greatest treasure i gained from it was the friends i got to know through the event

the busiest times of the year...

preparations and practices for Mooncake Festival performances

when i took part in 2 performances

when i always need to appear in 2 places at the same time

the most difficult times i gone through this year...

during my first term exam in USM i would say

when i was feeling so inferior,so weak,so stupid

fortunately i still obtained satisfactory result

the craziest times of the year...

during CNY 2010 wushu performance training

when me and my bunch of girlfriends enjoy talking while stretching

laughing while training

until criticized by seniors that we are the noisiest batch

xp

that's all for my confessions...

and im wondering what would be your's?

i was reading back my first post in this blogspot

and realised it has almost been a year since i started it!!

so nice!

this means that i've kept a copy of my 2009 memories here...

soooo...

last but not least

-2009 memories sealed-

losing my sense of time

i've lost my sense of direction long long time ago...

everybody knows that...

and now i'm losing my sense of time...

i wake up early in the morning

have my breakfast and do some quick study

get ready and go for lectures

have my lunch and return to my room

try my best to skim through all the lecture notes

go for wushu training

and also string practise for Christmas Night 2009

return to my room at 12am

take my bath and sleep

the cycle is then repeated...

life is sooo hectic

till i gradually forget that today is already 29th Dec!!!

whether you like it or not

time does flies

so fast that you've never imagined

anyway...

somehow between my cramped schedule i managed to grab some time to scribble down a little bit of my mind here...

3 more days to go before arriving 2010!!!

new year

new spirit

new revolution

new target

new me

i like it

:)

joyful christmas

to be frank...

Christmas meant nothing to me

because im not a christian(though many people told me that i looked like and sounded like one...LOL)

the last christmas i celebrated...

perhaps it was about 12 years ago...

when i was still in Austria?...

HAHA

but i had a different christmas this year!!!

and i never thought that anybody would celebrate christmas in kelantan though!!^^

but things are like this...

people usually enjoy doing things that's unsual--like celebrating christmas in kelantan though you aren't a christian...hehe

okies...

during christmas eve...

we went to Pizza Hut for christmas eve dinner...xp
then i spent the whole night talking to my roomie^^

during christmas day...

we went to Billy Cafe--the almost extinct western food cafe in kelantan to have our christmas dinner...

but that ended up almost everyone not feeling full enough...

then we decided to have our second round at Mc Donald...

Hhmmm~

i think we gotta know how to enjoy life and treat ourselves better...

especially we are medical students that study soooo hard!*lame excuse*

HAHA

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

perhaps this is the only christmas tree that can be found at kelantan

hohoho~

nice christmas celebration with a bunch of girlfriends!!!

o...this christmas tree,again!!yi chuan was the only guy among 11 girls...haha...

i love this picture...traditional leopard fist turned into cute posture!!^^

my turkey dinner,named "Ham Dinger"...it tasted not bad...yummy!

and then...as i've mentioned...2nd round at Mc Donald!!my desert--chocolate sundae...sweet!!=)

lastly...

christmas had ended...

wish everyone had a nice christmas this year...

and looking forward to our brand new year coming!!!

*cheers

冬至快乐!!

does this looked gross??haha...yea,it might!but it tasted nice though!!guess who made this "tang yuan" for us??our wushu seniors!!!^^owh...they are really really really nice souls!!hhmmm~when i applied my first bite on it,it was like...WOW!SOOO幸福!!!

wakaka!!happily eating "tang yuan" prepared by our seniors..not even take bath yet after the gruesome 3hours of wushu practise...lol

by the way...im now on RENAL BLOCK...

i kinda luurvv our kidneys...

much more than our respiratory tracts!!keke^^

here comes...TADA~

okay!finished with my pics and descriptions and here comes my life story...

with continuation of my previous "sleepy" post...

im gonna talk about my result...

*not again!!!*heehee...

but by writing it and spitting out my emotions is my way of searching my inner-thoughts

which sometimes,i may choose to ignore

im quite a perfectionist...

am i?at least this is what i think...

the first thing that im not satisfied with my B+ is that i did not improve!

the second thing is that im once again,not far from getting an A-

the third thing is that i think i deserve more...

the fourth thing is that most of the chinese students here got As but i was not one of them which kinda makes me feel,not-so-chinese...you may think that im stupid to think like this but you will  understand if you really stand in my shoes... 

the last thing is that i feel bad for keeping on persuading myself that B+ is just not far from getting an A...

and that it was all the stupid mistakes that i made which grabbed away my A...

and that i was too actively involved in activities...

and that im actually intelligent enough to get an A but luck just wasn't on my side...

and that i deserve much more than just a B...

blahblahblah~

many people told me that by obtaining a B in a medical school,like me,is not an easy thing and that we need not aim for As...

some people told me that to maintain such a good result is already a difficult thing to do...

but me myself think that by maintaining your achievement but seeing other people improving means you are deteriorating,and it's considered,by me,a failure...

perhaps someday i should start accepting the fact that simply,im just not good enough...

that no matter how hard i tried,i will never get an A... 

this is so sad

TT

of hope & grades

"Fire and hope are connected,just so you know.The way the Greek told it,Zeus put Prometheus and Epimetheus in charge of creating life on earth.Epimetheus made the animals,giving out bonuses like swiftness and strength and fur and wings.By the time Prometheus made man,all the best qualities had been given out.He settled for making them walk upright,and he gave them fire.

Zeus,pissed off,took it away.But Prometheus saw his pride and joy shivering and unable to cook.He lit a torch from the sun and brought it to man again.To punish Prometheus,Zeus had him chained to a rock,where an eagle fed on his liver.To punish man,Zeus created the first woman-Pandora and gave her a gift,a box she was forbidden to open.

Pandora's curiosity got the best of her,and one day she opened that box.Out came plagues and misery and mischief.She managed to shut the lid tight before hope escaped.It's the only weapon we have left to fight the others."

"MY SISTER'S KEEPER"

Jodi Picoult

i lurv this short description!!it's picked from one of the book im obsessed with recently,a book worth reading indeed!!^^

i just got my result for my 2nd term exam...

i obtained an overall B+,again

A+ for Data Interpretation

A- for Multiple Choice Questions

C- for Short Essay Questions

sometimes whether you like it or not

you just get what you deserve

i knew i screwed up my SEQ

that's why i got C- for it

which snatched my A- away

gradeisnotimportant

gradeisnotimportant

gradeisnotimportant

mama said something that hurt my feelings today

but she said i was being too sensitive

perhaps she's right

i may be over-sensitive

but that's only towards person that i care and love

whatever they say can mean the whole world to me

that's all that i'd like to tell you guys today

to be continued in the next post

feeling so darn sleeeeeppy...

night world:)

the memoir

do you know how to pronounce "memoir"?

it was one of those difficult words which i didn't know how to pronounce back then...

but my uncle taught me this...

it's pronounce as MEH-MO-AR...

Hhmmm~

as this is my 100th post here in blogspot...

i'd like to name this post as the memoir...

the memoir which tells my dear reader the close-to-life diary of mine...

the memoir which im proud with because i created 100 blogposts...

not 100 short,not-more-than-ten-words posts...

but 100 heart-digging,ten-marks-essay blogsposts!!

whoohoo~

***

i don't have any special feelings/emotions to be posted today though...

it was just another ordinary yet satisfactory day for me...

but...

well im quite an easily contented person...

just because i played violin today

or because i completed half of my SGD homework

or because my level in "happy aquarium" in facebook is increasing

or because i attended wushu training and got to exercise

or because i cooked myself a delicious dinner

or because i washed my own clothes today

because of all these...

i shall consider today as one of the most pleasant day in my life^^

and it's scribbled in my 100th post...

see i told you it's nice to own a blog

it helps you to make out those camouflaged nice day which you certainly may missed out...

***

two thumbs up for this!!sorry one of my thumbs is used to hold the camera;)

 my dinner--delicious PASTA!!!well,it doesn't looked delicious in this pic,looked a bit like SH*T...hehehe

tada~this is the one!!yummy!yummy!!i even added an egg into it to make it more nutritious!^^

i shared half of it with my neighbour--jiamiao!!and look!hmm~she's enjoying!!

***

and that's it!!

the end of my 100th post...

dear readers...

stay tuned with me,my bloggie and my life kie??

lotz of love from blog mistress

♥vivian♥

the only inhabitant left in DN336

im all alone in my room again...

'cz my roommate went home for an family event...

last time i used to think that how good would it be if i i can stay in a single room...

but now i might have to spend a second thought on it...

reconsidering the pros of staying with another person...

♥1

you can always find somebody to talk to whenever you feel like it...

♥2

if your roomie is taking the same course as you then you gals can have discussions...

♥3

you can always ask your roomie to accompany you to go anywhere...

♥4

you gals can exchange private opinions/thoughts about every happenings...

♥5

if you are extremely afraid of cockroaches etc etc,like me,hopefully your roomie can help you to get rid of 'em...

♥6
if you bought oranges and your roomie bought apples,you gals can exchange so that you get to eat both:)

♥7

you can ask your roomie to help you to rub if you get bruises...

♥8
you can borrow kitchen appliances such as rice-cooker from your roomie!^^

♥9

you can get new nice songs nice movies dramas nice games from your roomie laptopie...

♥10

wheneva you feel bored studying,you gals can crack some simple jokes and end up laughing till the groundfloor can hear your horrible laughter...

owh im gonna miss her much!>< 

***

life has been sooo easy for USM's medic 1st years during this few weeks because our Respiratory Block has few lectures and many self-study periods!!

im trying not to indulge myself too much...

actions and consequences you know...HAHA

yesterday after our evening lectures we went to D'Klassik Cafe to have dinner...my food was the last to be served...so when it finally comes i was like...YEAH!!!=D

group photo of us...a nice cafe nice environment nice decoration but not-that-nice + expensive food...usm-ians are not recommended to this cafe!!hiakhiak^^

the show

it's a must to pay a visit to the hospital every morning...whenever im on my way to the lecture hall

and there will always be different scenes shown every morning,on each of everyday

it's like a show

sometimes i can see old patients enjoying their walk,accompanied by their grown-up child...

sometimes i can see mother hugging their new-born baby,smiling sweetly...

but,sometimes i can see sick,old people making their way to the clinic with great difficulties,alone...

and young patients sitting on the wheelchair with shaky limbs...

or perhaps,lost-looking family members grieving over their relative's death...

seeing this everyday is a good thing

they remind me to always be grateful with what i have

***

the feeling of homesick-ing is still over-whelming

so i decided to escape to home next week

im writing this here 'cz not much usm-ians are following my blog,can't let 'em know^^

***

does talking itself invites trouble?

if so i'll stop talking then

shut.up.

i hate being pointed fingers by others

as if it's all my fault

as if i purposely create the chaos

as if i enjoy secrets leakage

as if i don't care if people get hurt

***

in Respiratory System Block

i learned that the opening of nasolacrimal duct is in the anterior part of the inferior nasal meatus...

that's why whenever we cry we will have runny nose...

last time when i cry?

few days ago...

the reason why?

too embarassed to let you know

=)

Bon Voyage...my sweet home

~Bon Voyage~

im sooo not willing to come back to my campus his timeT.T

im used to it already...

only staying at home for a week and then leave

but this time i have this very sad,emotional feeling

like the feeling i used to have during my first week in matriculation college
im not always that strong afterall...

while i was spending up to 2 hours,cleaning up my hostel room

i thought of the shopping spree i had with my lovely mum yesterday...

while i was taking the soooo freeeezing cold shower

i thought of the warm shower i had at home this morning...

i look at the crammy tiny space im having it here

i thought of my spacious home and my REAL room...

i look at the tiny single bed im having here

i thought of my quen-sized bed at home...

im having Nesvita as my dinner

i thought of last night,at this very moment i was enjoying dinner with my family at "tong sui kai"...

i have to stay here alone tonight because my roomie will only arrive tomorrow morning

i thought of my bro and sis and the noises they created...

i sit at my plastic chair here

i thought of the comfy couch in my living room...

im forcing myself to eat the Sunsweet prunes

i thought of the sweet kiwis i had last night,at home,in front of our plasma TV...

i thought of Alfie,too

wandering where is she and what is she doing now or is she doing fine...

then i thought of Candy

i forgot to say goodbye and talk to her,like i used to before leaving...

while im at home im being treated like a princess

HERE...im not expecting anything...

just no princess-treatment

no nice food

no comfy bed

most important of all

NO FAMILY

sob.sob.this is so unfair.

 this pic is taken by my bro...first time buying cosy ice-cream cake from Baskin Robin to celebrate my sis's birthday...was looking so happy then...now when i thought of it...i only had one piece of that cake,don't even have time for me to eat another piece before leaving HAHA...diabetic person you better don't eat too much of the cake(only YOU know what im talking about^^)

im going to find something to do here and keep myself busy...

so that i won't be thinking too much about home

stay strong vivian...

and smile :)

a precious day,we shared

it was such a nice and peaceful hangout...

we shared fun great times together...
i lurrvvv it!!♥
ooyea im actually talking about the gathering we had yesterday 

with kmph perak-ians...

♫yi yong
♫chee yan
♫hao jiang
♫zhi han
♫me

pic taken in K Box@Ipoh Parade...i created an album in facebook for this,so please kindly refer to my profile in facebook if you are interested^^

shattered holiday

it was a nice family vacation

but horrible things keep attacking our way...

horrible no.1

coming to the end of our vacation...i accidentally deleted all the photos i took in my Cybershot!!!sob

pics taken while the car engine started?gone.

pics taken at the enchantingly decorated resort?gone.

pics taken while we were enjoying our BBQ korean buffet?gone.

pics taken while we were visiting Hard Rock Hotel?gone.

pics taken in the toy museum?gone.gone.gone.

there are all gone

but memories?they stay.=)

horrible no.2

while our car is parked outside our gate,as usual.

we called "CANDY!!ALFIE!!",as usual.

Candy came out from her favourite hiding place behind the flower pot,as usual.

there was no sign of Alfie,unusual.

my neighbour came out,serious-looking,unusual.

he told us Alfie went missing since this afternoon while there was a heavy rain.OH MY GOD.

he said he tried to search for her but failed.SHIT.

we started engine again and went round our housing area to search for a little brownish thingy but the only thing we get was rain droplets all over our face.DAMN.

i hope she's fine

i hope she knows the way to go home

i hope she's not caught by bad people

tomorrow morning we're gonna search over my housing area again

bringing Candy along...

hope she can sniff us the way that leads to Alfie...

in the meantime...

i can just pray...

frenz~please pray for us kay?

we miss her sooo much!!