Ggrrrhhh

time: 6.05pm
venue: computer lab in USM library(hamdan tahir library~or whatever name it is called)
status: hungry.thirsty.eye-strain.impatient.not taken my bath yet!!!



oh my god!!!before i even realising it, i've spent an hour to connect my laptop to the wifi in the library, and yet i failed, AND i don't even know what the problem is...can somebody please help me-the IT idiot==...i eventually gave up and decided to use the strange-looking-big-screen-turtle-responding-pc in the library...TT...



today is the last day of my study days...sounded weird?surprised?as today is thursday?...THIS is the thing special about kelantan and i've yet to adapt to it...if you are still confused on what am i mentioning here...the weekends for kelantanese are on friday and saturday...this means that kelantanese will be started working or going to school on sunday...weird huh?i thought so too...lol



my previous post was only the highlight of my recent university life and NOW...im going to give you a larger piece of my mind...this will be a lengthy post{sounded boring to you??arrgh, just leave then!hohoho^^}



for those of my friends who willing to stay and listen to my grumblings, im feeling utmost grateful for that...



the university life here in USM health campus did teach me quite a lot of things...the most important lesson that i've been taught here is that the reality of the world of adults. this place is no longer as simple and free-of-worries as it was in the matriculation college, or in fact i tend to complicate things?well, im just telling you guys what i feel, so you can just ignore it if you think that im wrong or simply leave me a comment to correct me...

i noticed that true friends are much harder to be found here and somehow when im alone i'll just think of those times my friends and i had in KMPh and it's quite saddening...another thing is, the moment i entered this place, my mind is just filled with comparisons...from the hostel.toilet.laundary room.food.lecture hall.library and F.R.I.E.N.D.S...

as what the senior told us, university is the place where people take gossip as a hobby and I AM THE ONE WHO DISLIKE THIS KINDA THING...for me gossip makes you change the way you feel about that person, the way you perceive that person, the way you look at that person, from good to bad or vice-versa...

and HERE, is the place where most people is wearing their masks when they make friends and socialise with purpose...this is the place where appearance wins it all...and I AM THE ONE WHO DISLIKE THIS KINDA PEOPLE...my mum would say: its no use for you to complain, even if you dislike something, you'll just have to get over that feeling, you have to live through it and survive...i knew that these feelings are unhealthy and it would somehow makes my life more miserable so i choose to listen to her advise, to stop comparing and complaining and disliking...

of course not all the people are bad here, i've met some good souls here as well, and i know that there are more kind souls out there waiting for me to befriended of...wakaka=)

one of the lecture i attended today was about to search your inner-self, the self that only you yourself perceive, the self that is hidden...one of the questions asked: WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF?...after i pondered for a while, i've found the answer, that is...my strong determination and positive feelings towards everything in life!!and i'll grab hold on it dearly and never loosen my grip...and i believe that THIS can help me to survive through the 5 years university life here...

i know university life should be an enjoyable one and this is obviously contrasting to what im trying to tell you here...
maybe this is just a beginning and it would be getting better soon...
maybe im just being over-sensitive...
maybe i have not fully-adapted to the life here YET...

to end this post...

"life's like a music piece, you will never know what it offers you next until you play it out LOUD...even if you are not familiar to the piece, just PLAY, with confidence and courage...enjoy the piece, will you??"