在雨中穿梭

看来今天老天爷好像很不高兴
泪水拼命地撒了一整天都没停过。。。


今天真是一个多余又多雨的一天
就因为丹州应了一场球赛，结果整个丹州宣布放假一天
这应该是我所遇到最荒谬的新闻吧？？？
对于此事我也不想给太多意见，因为老豆怕我会被告！
哈哈


就因为今天没上课
我从一大清早就埋头苦干地念书
直到下午终于撑不下去了
结果堕落地看了一部电影
但我相信我并没有白白花费那两个小时
电影名称：The Gifted Hands:The True Story of Ben Carlson
这是一部很感人的电影，描述了一名脑部专科的人生故事。。。
不，我并没可以去找一部关于医科的电影来看
事情就是如此地巧合
也许这就是我和医科的缘分吧？
无论做任何事都摆脱不了。。。


我真是无法忍受一整天呆在房间的郁闷
望望窗外，发现雨好像变小了！
笑一笑，决定出去骑脚踏车，做做运动，散散心。。。


小小的雨滴轻轻地拍在我脸上
冰凉的风随着我的步伐，缓缓地吹散我的头发
真爽快！
哪怕那阵爽快只持续了十五分钟，雨又变大了
但我还是心满意足地回房^^

i walked in the rain...

i cycled in the rain...

i ran in the rain...

but i've never danced in the rain...

i'd like to try it someday:)

ps...dear readers,do i sound weird in chinese?and was my chinese blogpost acceptable or it sounded like a 3-years-old?

i've tried my best though,just for fun=)

Happy Halloween!!!

owh i started to miss them...

4 dayyysss moreeee!!!^^

oh did i tell you guys that im gonna get myself the latest generation of iPod this time back homey???

front view

back view

owh i totally heart this!!!!!!^^

i wanna buy this for a good reason kie...

my handy's earphone keeps malfunctioning...

and i'd been changing new earphones,for times...

and weeks ago,my earphone is dead,again...

and just can't live without music~♪

well i guess its a good reason,not?:)

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okies,let's get back to real life...

arrhythmias and anti-arrhythmic drugs...

these really drive me into arrhythmic state=.=

but thank God i finished reading all of them already!!!

now starting to cover other extra aspects eg ECG and chest X-Ray

then,i'll start my revision,if time permits^^

my recent life has been quite blissful...

not so busy,yet not too free...

just nice to motivate me to study...

GREAT!!!shall this remain till my 1st term exam in phase 2?...

talking about exams...

there will be plenty of them knocking on my door next few weeks...

CFCS and TITAS and also our first ever term exam in phase 2...

what really worries me the most is of course,our term exam...

well,just hoping that i'll pass through it safely,without failing any paper...

gotta start praying now=)

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lastly...

its now 10 minutes before Halloween...

so...

Happy Halloween everyone!!!=D

i actually googled about Halloween and found out the meaning behind it...

so its actually quite similar to the chinese festival 元宵节...

both represents the day when the barrier between the human world and the underworld aka spiritual world is the weakest...

and this enables the spirits to go home for a visit...

at the same time,humans will dress up in Halloween costumes to scare off those evil spirits...

though i knew that this day is actually insignificant in malaysia...

but...

i wish that i could celebrate it someday,wearing halloween costume,and throwing a Halloween party...

who's interested in joining?=P

:>

the most hearty breakfast i ever had in USMkk

V^^V

it took only 15min to make this!!!

and it brightens my day,totally

=D

have a nice day everyone!!!

:)

when love steps in❤

i just came back from one of the CFCS programmes,a field visit to a Down Syndrome's Centre near my campus,and i can't wait to share my experience with you readers(:

before departure...everybody was blur-looking

XD

the moment we reached,we were greeted by this pathetic,rusty signboard,which made most of us feeling...omg!!!

after walking for a distance,only did we realise the exact Down Syndrome's Centre...

every child is their angels,even if they are the victims of Down's Syndrome... 

read this,its meaningful=]

the child's paintings...

when Amir was attendinga 1/2 hr class to teach him how to recognise objects eg body parts,colors etc etc...

the woman in blue is one of the senior teachers in the centre...

the way she teaches in the most patience way,it touches my heart deeply:)

one of the volunteers working in the centre...

the place where they have breakfast

one of the kind-hearted vonlunteers

took quite a lot of pics with those child...they were quite happy seeing us though,enjoy showing us their dancing and singing skills^^

she's definitely one of the most adorable child i've seen in life=)

finally...a group photo of PBL14!!!just hope that all of us will become good doctors in the future ya^^

im starting to enjoy the CFCS programme though...
its the time when lecture notes are put aside...
and we'll step into the community's health...
such a meaningful programme;)

im full of motivation today!!!=)
trying keep the fire within me...
don't let it extinguish!!!^^

the moon

今晚的月亮好圆，好亮哦！！！
可是，是不是除了我就没人察觉？
我们就只有在中秋节时才会去注意月亮到底长什么样。。。
那么月亮一定很寂寞。。。


所以。。。
得空时，读书读到压力时。。。
不妨走出房门。。。
抬头望望月亮和星星。。。
它们总会给我心灵上短暂的平静。。。
:)

the Moon is like friends in our lives...
they are always there...
its just that you never notice their presence unless there's any significant event...
sometimes you may even neglect their presence when they show up...

i changed my msn add finally and created a new account so that i can keep in touch with the important friends in my life(my previous acc was so congested by strangersXP)...and last night i chatted with few matric friends and old school buddies...it feels really good to chat with them and to keep track of each other's lives...they made me feel...ALIVE!!!no more a reading zombie^^...

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Ooops sorry im here to blog again...

s'pose to be studying...

but can't resist the temptation of jotting down my life=)

i had quite a fun weekend...

Wushu Club USMkk has organised an Interaction Day which consisted of station games and refreshments...

though the event was quite tiring but it was really enjoyable!!!

belows are some of the funny pics caught on my digi cam^^

chest vs axilla

buttock vs lips

axilla vs lips

Han Tung & i...we were the game masters of our station "Touch & Go!!!"

lol~now you know how to play the game???

we had water ball attacks too!!!^^

it ends well with unforgettable memories well-captured...
life's just so sweet,isn't it?
:)

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wushu training for CNY Night 2011 wushu performers have started officially...

this year we have 21 performers in our wushu team,exactly the same number as last year's...

just hope that we can present a better performance thn last year's^^

i really enjoy training with this new batch of freshies...

im really thankful that most of them are willing to give commitments...

and training with 'em brings back memories of last year's CNY wushu training,which was so torturing,yet there's something inside that made you feel like you'll not want to skip any practice...

anyway,we gave them stamina training today and everyone started complaining on fb...

what i wanna tell them is that...

be strong!be determined!and show me that you're fit enough to perform in the great hall of USM!

its for your own good....

really...

HAHA=D

ECG

now my poor brain is sooo full of ECG
i had my wushu club meeting just now and then senior gave us briefing on ECG right after the meeting
we spent hours on it...
ending up finishing at around 1.30am!!!
actually we spent quite some time on talking and chatting nonsense thingy...
which are the most enjoyable partXD

and after reaching my room,i drank 2 1/2 mugs of 腐竹薏米...
which i cooked before i left for meetings...
Hhmmm~
it was sooo nice!!!^^
i really love to drink 糖水...
believe it or not...
i can cook 1L of red bean soup and finish it,all by myself!!!
by drinking it as lunch and tea time and dinner=)

and now im having difficulty in falling asleep...
due to the over-loaded stomach...
and also because of my sleeping hours have passed long ago...
so here i am again...
i really enjoy blogging...
i should conclude that apart from being a doctor,my 2nd interest is music,and the 3rd one should be writing...hehe

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im so,so sadT.T
initially i planned to go home from 3rd Nov till 8th Nov...
only did i find out just now that we'll be having TITAS exam on 8th morning!!!
i even booked the flight ticket already!!!
aih sooo upset that i gotta waste my parents' money again...
but,i have no other choiceT.T

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im getting more and more used to being alone...

i found out that its a way of freedom as well...

when there's only you and yourself...

you can spend more time on listening to your heart(ooops,not the normal heart sounds S1 S2 ah...)

i went to the hypermarket alone today^^

it was the first time i think...

before this i dare not to do so because im kinda phobia towards the busy traffic

im scared of crossing the road by myself(don't laugh at me!!!)

and so i crossed my own limitation today

by crossing the busy road alone,shopping for fruits and neccesities and had a lunch at a cafe nearby,all alone...

and surprisingly,i felt good!!!
i felt calm and blissfully zen...

ooyea...

i tried Cintaku(the bread shop beside the hypermarket)'s cheese tart today!!!

and it was kinda good^^

i lurve cheeeeeeese!!!(:

CATS vs ANTS

✿CAT✿

i dislike cats
sorry to cat-lovers...
cats are stink,heartless lil creature
that pee & poo everywhere
and their baby-like crying is sooo annoying
plus their fakingly innocent look
with their dirty tails that love to curl around your feet...
URGH~


there are seriously a big community of cats living in my hostel's corridor
and they attacked my cactus 3 days ago!!!
and today i stepped onto their poo!!!
GOSH that was sooo disgusting
and just in case you don't know...
cat feces are thousands time more smelly than doggy's...
i ending up spending an hour to clean my slippers and my doorstep...
I HATE CATS!!!

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✿ANTS✿

they are one of the most harmless creatures in the world...

BUT imagine seeing them crawling everywhere within your eyesights...

im so sure that i've washed my cups gleamingly clean yet i still find them crawling in my cup every morning!!!

they are even crawling on my laptop's keyboard while im typing this!!!

GOSH am i too sweet or what?X)

and so i put the poisonous ant-powder in every corner in my room

hoping this will kill the entire ants community...

HOHOHO!!!

Ooopss~

seems like im ruining my own image huh

by posting a violent blog like this hehe

don't worry...

apart from cats and ants...

im an absolutely lovable person♡

^^

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i don't know what happened to my life recently...

it seems that im so DAMN unlucky these days...

let's start counting:

1. 2 days ago i fell down while riding a bicycle with baju kurungXP
2. last night i was being locked outside my room!!!
3. and last night too,i accidentally ate an rotten apple...
4. my yogurt drink was being stolen in the fridge...
5. my cactus was being attacked...
6. i stepped into a cat's poo just now!!!

maybe i should start praying to Buddha...

before anymore unpredictably unfortunate events strike me again... 

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i feel relieved after confessed my problems to someone yesterday

thank you...

honestly speaking,im not sure whether its the right thing for me to do so...

because after being immersed in the complicated social pool for this long...

i can no longer being able to differentiate who's the good and the bad guy...

i was merely following my instinct...

and i hope that its an accurate one...

and it won't bring me any bad consequences...

im really growing up

and growing up is nothing but to change into a more complicated person

my blogposts will never appear in facebook and i dare not to make a link in between...

because i wish to minimize my readers,especially those who work closely with me nowadays...

i just need a more private space for me to spill my emotions...

my post here may not be tally with what you see in real life...

simply because sometimes things need to be hidden...

for good sake of everybody...

need to attend lecture now...

TATA

(:

='')

just feeling sooo glad that HTD has come to an end
:)

for the entire 3 days of Hari Terbuka Desa...
all the committees os HTD Wushu Stall need to wake up at 5am every morning to do preparations so that we can start selling our food by 8am...
for once in a life time...
i experienced the life of a hawker
and im thankful that im a future doctor,but not a hawker!!!hehe^^

the food that we sold for 3 days included:

Ipoh specialty: Ice-blended Red Bean!!!^^

Chinese Herbal Eggs

Kacang Kuda

Glutinous rice balls with pandan flavor or with choc fillings...with either ginger soup or soya bean soup

the ginger soup was the nicest!!!^^

our second home for these 3 days

family photo:consists of 4th and 5th year seniors,2nd year committees and also 1st year helpers...

i simply ♥ my wushu family here

=)

ooyea!!!not to forget my HTD Wushu performers!!!they only started intensive training 2 weeks before the event and managed to put on a good show...GOOD JOB!!!

so...
we were selling from 8am right up to 9pm++
shifts are divided of course
but as committees,we're actually required to come to the stall to help out whenever we're free
and...
expectedly,some not-so-responsible fellar didn't even come and help at all
and give loads of stupid reasons
i didn't meant to shoot them
but i just couldn't control myself
XP

aiks~
perhaps i need to regurgitate a lil bit of my short-circuit character
and to learn how to accept that there are indeed loads of bad people with bad characters and bad personalities around me...

nevermind...
papa taught me that whatever we do
just stick with what you believe that its right
cz God is watching
other people may not see how much effort you put into
or they may not see how irresponsible other people is acting
but God knows^^

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actually i wanted to tell you guys about this few days before

but due to my busy schedule

i just didn't have the mood of telling

and i think now is the best time to tell...

I WILL BE JOINING AN INTERNATIONAL MEDICAL STUDENTS CONFERENCE BY NEXT YEAR JANUARY AT BANGKOK,THAILAND!!!

Owh Gosh i was sooo excited

when my fren Hoyi,the president of AMSA(asian medical students asscociation) told me that there are vacancies left for this conference,and after i talked to my parents(im still the good daughter^^)

i just agreed to join!!!

yeepee~

really can't wait for that...

its time to sleep...

we'll be entering the final week of CVS block and i still have loads of lecture notes from the past 2 weeks that are left untouched...

its time to stop dilly-dallying...

im HERE to become a DOCTOR!!!

not an ACTIVITIST!!!

bear in mind,vivian:)

DISAPPOINTMENT & FRUSTRATION

sometimes i could be so devastatingly disappointed by how the people act around me
selfish.irresponsible.lazy
i could search for "negative adjectives" in Google 
then copy and paste it here


when you're being too kind
people will take advantage of you
so...
mean?
or kind?


i'd be willing to work for nothing in return 
ONLY IF
the people i work with is the people that i worth working and enjoying working with

and im deeply frustrated by the ineffectiveness of the people i have to cooperate with
really
really
indescribably "BEH TAHAN"

OH GOD!!!
can anybody please pull me away from these mist of people???

angels

good morning readers:)
it feels good to hang a smile every morning when we wake up,isn't it so?

thanks to my family and friends' concerns and consultations...
im feeling much much more better now!!!
emo is flushed away,together with my s**t just now
XP

i think angels are always surrounding us

they are ready to help

its just that you never try to ask for it

my dad is my angel♥
he listens to my problem,gives me advices and pulls me up whenever i feel drowned...
days ago when i was in near-drowning state of hectic life im living
he taught me how to let go
of the least important things 
so that i can have more time to heal my soul

another angel that i encountered yesterday was a 5th year medic senior
my friends and i was so blurred,looking blankly at the patient's ECG,didn't know how to interpret it...
and then he just passed by
and i asked for his help
he just took a sit beside us and tried to explain everything about ECG to us,patiently...
he even found a patient with heart murmur for us to auscultate
which he claimed that its actually quite a rare case to find such obvious murmurs
owh really thanks to him and i finally able to listen to how a murmur sounds like!!!
THANKS SENIOR!!!=)

its 10.30am now...
its time to go for lecture
let's welcome the 3rd week of cardiovascular block with enthusiasm and the curiosity to learn!
tata^^

REHAK health campaign

just some special,interesting touch-ups of my medical student life^^

this morning,we departed at 8am to go to Sekolah Kebangsaan Sultan Ismail 1 for a health campaign organised by REHAK(reproductive health association of kelantan)...there are 10 of us...we did some basic health screenings like checking BMI,blood tests for glucose level,blood pressure etc etc...pap smear test and breast examination are provided free-of-charge as well...and forum about cervical cancer is also being held there...well,it was such a meaningful event to me because it was my first time joining this kinda community service,and im really lovin' it♥

yeah!!!just wanna introduce to you guys my latest electrical appliance added to my kitchen's list...hehehe^^

now i can toast breads with cheese or jams!!!
so niceeeee=D

cheerio~
waiting for a better,happier and stress-free tomorrow~

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im inspired by jack's latest blogpost regarding the busy life of medical students in USMkk here...
there written "busy...busy...busy...BUT...for what???"

what he said is true though...because i feel the same way too...sometimes i could be too busy till i don't even have time to sit down and think about what i have really done and what are the purposes of doing it...and when i really have time to think about it,i'll conclude that everything that i did,everything that makes my life busy till its no longer being appreciated by myself,they are all being done out of a simple word:RESPONSIBILITY.

please don't ever misunderstand me,its not that im forced to hold those responsibilities...i joined those activities out of INTEREST,but when the interest becomes a duty,a burden,i'd guarantee you that you can no longer remain the interest...sometimes,i may even think of dumping everything aside and just let other people settle it,especially to those who usually dump things for me to settle,but this is not the way im brought up...frankly speaking,its against my principle of getting things done...and so i'd end up swallowing everything into my stomach(lol,no wander i have a very bad digestive system><)...sometimes,i can be seriously frustrated by those who's incapable of getting their job done,its not that they are lack of capabilities,its just that they are selfish,lazy,unenthusiastic,irresponsible and inefficient...but what if those people are your friends?what can you do about it?

now,let's put aside jack's quote...

im was also equally inspired by my indian friend Jason's facebook status:
"It's not that I am too stressed or anything. It's just that I've forgotten how to smile."


it applies to me as well,almost perfectly...during this few days,i've been really emo...i can't smile,i just can't,and what i meant is those smile that really originate from your heart,but not those faking,dry smile...i just feel like there's nothing in this world that is worth smiling,to simplify,there's no reason for me to be happy...and this feeling is so miserable and pathetic cause it sucks away my lively character and it affects my social life as well...so i wrote this in facebook to apologise to everyone that i know:"sorry,sometimes i may not be as talkative and hyperactive and cheerful as i used to...im just so overwhelmed and drowned...please gimme a short break from everything...can anybody grant me this wish?:)"...and everybody replied me with a smile,as if they know that i can't smile,i really appreciate it,but those are in digital ways that i can't make out the sincerities in between,and one of my friend Jamie,we met just now and she was looking into my eyes and said:"vivian,you're really tired is it?i know you are...take some rest,kay?"...she gave me a smile and a warm hug...and i appreciate that,100 times more!:)


this isn't my first time of entering the world of depressed,but this is definitely one of the worst entries...
just.so.depressed.
and i don't even know why...


initially,i don't even feel like talking to my daddy and mummy anymore,because they will have no idea about what im thinking and doing and what kinda dilemma im facing...and so i'd just call and tell them frankly about what i did and what i ate...till today,i called my mum,and told her about my problem,and she asked whether i want them to come and visit me,i was truly touched!and nearly cried...she even asked me to take a flight home during weekends and would bring me for nice cuisines!!!...i would do so if im free during the weekends...im just sick of everything here,and i need a withdrawal,even for a short while will do wonders...and my mum,she tried to console me that my emotions now is probably due to hormone changes during AV,and it'd be over soon...i hope so too...


OMG
this post is getting lengthier!!!


the last chapter,i promised^^


i just wanted to share with you readers about the special encounter of mine today...we were practising wushu and suddenly one of the malay girl junior hurt her right thigh,she was apparently well until moments later she started to have difficulty in breathing,heart palpitations,coldness,dizziness and chest tightness...and then we asked her to sit down and rest and she was also being examined by our wushu 4th year senior but he found nothing wrong with her right thigh...then,we found out that her muscles start to contract,start from her legs,hands,fingers and even facial muscles!!!cheekeong and i then rushed her to the A&E department...and after much examinations by doctors and seniors and also blood investigations,she was diagnosed with sudden imbalance of potassium,sodium,calcium and chloride in her blood,with predominance of hypocalcemia,which caused the symptoms of tetani...and when the malay girl thought she had hurt her right thigh while practising,its actually caused by the abnormal calcium level too...interesting encounter right?but time consuming...i ended up staying there for 3 hours to keep her companied,with another 2 juniors,so nice of them=)...and i also grabbed the chance of learning something from the seniors there...i can see their enthusiasm in doing their job,bravo!^^


hhmmm,let's stop here...its raining heavily outside...and i seriously need some sleep cz i need to wake up early tomorrow morning to join AMSA's voluntary work...will touch up with you guys soon...


nitez~

+u

good evening world...
zzz

actually im really sleeeepy now 
but still i wanna blog before i sleep cz i can foresee the busy week ahead...


i had a really enjoyable and fun outing yesterday with my sisters in USMkk...
we used to go outing alot during 1st year but believe it or not,yesterday was my 1st outing during 2nd year!!!
cz everybody is busy with our own stuff,activities and studies...

anyway...
we found a surprisingly westernised Italian Restaurant!!!

NOTE the giant heater at left side of the photo,its used to heat the pizza!!!

and the great chef is an Italian gentlemen...

the herbs he used on the pizza and pasta are actually freshly-plucked from the growing pot of plant behind the glass...

interesting right?;)

the giant pizza was reaaal tasty!!!with loads of cheese,salami,herbs,tuna on a thin pastry...

we went for bowling...which i enjoyed sooo much after sooo long since i played it last time...

and my latest and highest record was...64!!!wakaka=D...it sucks i know=P

ooyea,i cooked ABC soup today:)
the ingredients are potatoes,carrots,tomatoes,eggs,shitake mushrooms,sausages anddd tofu!!!^^
i cooked and share it with erica...
hope she enjoyed the soup as i do...

the soup really tasted like what my mum used to cook...
which makes me wonder...
haiz~how good if my mum can cook soup for me everyday at my campus here...
i'll need not to worry about buying the wrong kinda potatoes or putting too much salt in it....
and erica kept on reminding me about i have another 2 and a half months before i can go home...
ur huh...T.T

THAT'S IT!!!
stop being such a pessimist vivian!!!
this coming week i'll be learning about hypertension aka high blood pressure
let's wind up the negative thoughts
and plant positive thoughts on more useful elements of your life

+u+u+u!!!
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