can i moan,here?

i think i have my rights to moan here,right?

blogging is all about releasing emotion afterall...

the only paper that im satisfied with what i did was Data Interpretation

i ruined my Essay and Multiple Choice Question papers!!!

*groangroangroan

i think i've did enough revision

i've read every lecture notes for about 4 times

im feeling more prepared than the last term exam i had

yet i performed badly

im really,really disappointed with myself

i was supposed to do the question i knew first when i realised the time wasn't enough to finish the two questions left...

yet my innerself was too stubborn and made me sticking on "boom-ing" the question that i don't really know what to write...

what the hell was i thinking that time???

whenever i think about this i felt like punching myself

*Oouch!

my friend asked:"are you aiming for an A's?"

i said::"nope,im only aiming for improvement"

she said:"last exam you got B+,if you're aiming for improvement,means you're aiming an A-!what's the difference?!"

i think she's right though...

everytime when people ask whether im aiming for A's

i used to say No and that i just wanna Pass...

but i can't really persuade my innerself

i can pretend that i don't bother about grades

but i can't really pretend to myself

i can't lie to myself

but i do hope that someday i can stop bothering

it's suffocating

anyway...

im now sitting in my hostel

feeling as relax as never before

playing games and facebook-ing

waiting time to pass to go home

can this moment last forever?

apart of all these moaning...

i still wanna share my 2 weeks life leading to the exam...

they made up most of my meals...peanut butter+choc & peanut butter+strawberry & wholemeal bread

it had been raining,for days...and an Apex university actually provides a balcony that leaks...in the end i gotta use my favourite USM umbrella to keep my clothes away from the naughty droplets...

ps...the differences between this study week compared to the previous one is that i was leading a healthy lifestyle this tme!!no more sleeping only at 3am...no more 5 hours of sleep...i made sure that i'll have the standard 7 hours of sleep everyday!!and i think it works,input does increases when i actually get enough sleep^^...and that i realised another thing...if you keep on reminding yourself to study so that you'll pass the exam,you'll find that it's torturing...but if you keep telling yourself that to memorise all those things is for your knowledge to become a good doctor and study with interest,everything will be much less forceful...

it's a nice day today

:)

Owh!not again...

it's now 12.30am

and i planned to sleep at 1am

so i got half an hour to blog

gotta discipline myself a bit to shift my Circadian rhythm^^

*clearing my throat

im going to declare something...

something that i did before

something that is essential

something that is related to life/death situation

guess what=)

reluctantly...

I GOTTA STOP BLOGGING FOR TWO WEEKS

(whoa~im so rational!^^)

it's for my own good so that whenever im doing my revision my fingers will not involuntarily click on the lovely blog of mine and start telling you guys grandma's stories which SOMETIMES maybe pointless but efficient in releasing tension despite engulfing alot of my study times however it maybe satisfying and may improve my memories while studying though it's not scientifically proven but only vivian-proven...

SEE!!it's no doubt that i can nag as well as my grandma=)

so...

i'll be back on 26th november

after my 2nd term exam

that's the reason why i gotta temporarily sop blogging...

my 2nd term MD exam will starts on 24th november...

3 blocks will be included compared to last time's 4 blocks...

BUT

i can assure you it's not going to be more easy compared to last time

because we got the most complicated block--NERVOUS SYSTEM

the other two are HAEMATOLOGY & LYMPHOID SYSTEM and CARDIOVASCULAR SYSTEM

*faint

anyway...

wish me luck kie...

though im not going to blog within these two weeks but i'll still visit my blog frequently...

just to catch a glimpse on whether anyone's leaving me comments or wishes...hehe^^

last but not least...

good luck and all the best to those who will be having exams too!!

especially my pals in eeepoh who will be sitting their STPM

*jiayou!!!

with this...

i sign this post with my pic 'cz i know you guys will be missing me><

the day when the rain stops

it's such a lovely day today

because the rain stops,finally

wanna know what's the effect of raining 3 days non-stop?

i wanted sooo much to shift my biological clock to a more normal one but i always failed...

felt sooo unhealthy lar sleeping at 3am and wake up at 11am

***

last night after wushu practice me and my wushu gang went to KFC to have our dinner

and we all went back to our hostel by 10pm

but after that 5 girls gathered in my room

and these 5 girls are extremely talkative

and from 10pm

we talked talked talked

until 1am...

then only we went to bath...

ewwh~we stink!^^

and that made me sleep late,again~

this is the most beneficial thing i did yesterday!!my favourite topic: functional areas of cerebral cortex

oranges oranges oranges!!!

that my mum bought for me from eeepoh~

there are still plenty of them

i ❤ sweety oranges

just why

i just noticed that i have been blogging quite a lot recently

some are meaningful

some are just pointless posts

like the one im writing here...hehe

the reason why i love blogging so much...

is that to release tension from brain hypertonicity(i created this myself,don't think there's such thing in medical dictionary^^) after spending hours to stuff knowledges into my brain...

or to voice out my hidden emotions...

or to kill my leisure time in a more beneficial way by practising creative writing...

or to use my blog as a bridge to connect my world to other's especially long-distant friends and family

or simply wanna tell the world the grandma's stories of my life which maybe so lame and nobody would like to listen to me in real life...>.<

anyway...

i do have something to share with you guys today

i had Small Group Discussion today on Haematology

and Yi Chuan joined our group

i wonder if you still remember this guy?the smartest amongst our badge

while he was in front presenting haemoglobin synthesis

i can't help it but my mind drifted away for few seconds...

"whoa~how come God created someone so miraculously like him?how come his memory is sooo damn good he can remember everything in the lecture notes almost without any mistakes?how come he can understand something so well?how come he still has time to browse through the internet and reference books to read extra knowledges about certain topics as he's also active in activities as well?howhowhow and whywhywhy???"

drifted back to tutorial room...

but there's also some people that created sooo much contrasts...

those people who actually know little yet still wanna act like he knows everything while presenting in front of everyone until he made us all pengsan...

risky huh listen to this kinda people doing presentation...

but since i can't close my ears

i can't help but laughing silently,the way he stand up and speak,overconfidently...

the way he explained almost everything wrong

the way he got corrected by yi chuan yet still wanna convince everyone that he knows that actually

HA.HA.HA

btw...i took this in library today,wearing my new lime green polo T...love the color!!^^...one more thing...don't you think that my face is just getting rounder??O gosh~

i love my new blue flip-flops!!!

lastly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR LITTLE SIS

metamorphosis

im pulling out myself from drowning into the sea of physiology

the physiology of muscle reflex is undeniably interesting and fun

but the fonts in Ganong are way too small until my eyes got strained and...

gradually my eyelids feel heavier than usual...

and then im here...

giving you an long excuse to blog

=)

you know what...

i woke up at 12noon today!!!

but i feel it's worth it because i studied quite a lot today and everything goes into my brain quite easily^^

and it has been raining whole day

im worrying 'bout flooding in my campus now

this is the view when i woke up this AFTERNOON

the rain is pouring the whole day...

i've thought of telling you guys this long time ago but i tend to forget...

i bought,nope my daddy bought the latest novel of Cecelia Ahern's for me!!

i've become quite a huge fan of cecelia ahern since JIALI introduced her to me

soooo thnx jiali!!i miss you by the way=)

lurve the book cover~❤

when i was taking a short break just now...

i went to take a glimpse at my old pics and

i've something interesting and funny to share with you all...

not 'bout physiology of course...

this is taken during my secondary school times-i was in form5 that time...i had long pony tail back then

after graduated from my sec school...i did something weird to my hair--"jagung perm"...wakaka...which makes my hair looked bushier and cute!!like this~

then,i entered matriculation programme,the day before i leave home i cut my bushy hair to have a fresh new beginning of my life episode and that time i looked like this...

after matriculation my hair got shorter and shorter and i dunno why...hehe

before entering university...as i've never experience hair-dyeing before...i dyed my hair into bronzy red color...i wasn't dare to look into the mirror at first but then after quite some time i started to like it!!!

and finally...this is the pic i taken few days ago...still short-haired but my hair looked blackish now...hhmmm~im missing my coloured hair!!!=P

that's all...

the end of my metamorphosis...

interesting huh??

keke

ps...some of the pics i uploaded here i dare not show them to anyone before 'cz some of them really kinda WALAO-A!!but for the sake of you--my friend..i decided to share with you..HAHA..hope those pics didnt shock you much...

it's raining,again

recently kelantan has been raining alot

lurve the cooling and calming effect God created

but it's cold

but i'll still turn on my private table fan

so i gotta wear sweater to fight the cold

roomie asked:"why not you just turn off the fan?"

me:"i like the feeling as if im staying in a winter place..."

==lll

my face looked extraordinary big in this pic...haizhaizhaiz!!keke

today i came across a passage about memory and sleep

erm it mentioned about a research done where people is asked to memorise some characters

half of the participants were asked to get a sleep after memorising it

while another half of them were asked to carry out other activities

after some time they were asked to recall what they had memorised earlier

and the result was...

those who went to sleep actually been able to recall everything

contrastingly those who did not get any sleep forget what they had memorised...

to explain it in a scientific way...

the thing that we memorise will be stored temporarily in a part of our brain named hippocampus

and when our brain is resting during sleeping

this is the time when the hippocampus communicate with another part of our brain named neocortex

where those memories will be sent to the neocortex to be kept as permanent memory

so if we don't sleep enough

there will be no intervals for the hippocampus to transfer our memory to the neocortex

which means that allllll the things we studied or memorised will only be kept as short-term memory and will be forgotten easily...

can anybody tell me what to do???

should i sleep or should i not???

honestly im not that interested in sleeping as i used to consider it as a time-wasting activity

plus the bed in my hostel here is sooo not comfy

so unless i fish until i feel that my forehead is knocking against my anatomy textbook

if not im not gonna lie on my bed to sleep

but now i gotta think it over again...

ps...i only got max 5 hours of sleep everyday

hhmmm~any suggestion?

last but not least...

im on a secret mission...sshhh~

gotta bid goodbye...

gotta complete my Small Group Discussion homework on Haematology...

tata

im motivated^^

thanks dad!

for the lengthy journey you had to drive all the way just to pay me a visit...

thanks mum!

for your "longan tong shui" and all the yummy fruitsfruitsfruits...

thanks to my cutie plumpie little bro Jason 

and thanks to my coolie pretty little sis Vicky

for skipping class to come and visit me...XP

Hhmmm~

the trip you guys have given me kinda motivated me somehow

=)))

belows are some of the sweet pics taken during our family trip around kelate...^^

amongst all...this pic is my utmost favourite!!!

and this is my 2nd favourite...hehehe

my beloved daddy & mummy...i love you soooo much!!muackssss~

my 2nd term exam is getting nearer and nearer and i gotta accelerate to get my revision done...

hope i can improve just a little bit more for my 2nd term exam and then i'll be able to get an A-...hehe

hhmmm~sounded chalenging but im gonna try my bestbestBEST!!!

 

but in the meantime...

something is causing me some discomfort...

that is...

don't be shocked

don't be scared

this is what happened to my hands lately

i have been living with this annoying spots and colouring between my fingers for 3 weeks already!!

i was like a ball being thrown here and there

from student's clinic to family clinic to skin specialist in HUSM

but the pigmentation still persists!!

the professor told me that the best diagnosis he can made is lichenoid reaction with unknown cause...

*clearing my throat

 PLEASE CAN ANYBODY HELP ME??

i want my prettypretty hands back...

symptom:

-appear as tiny dark brown spots

-darken over time

-color intensity is the highest between fingers

-only appear at dorsum part of my hands

-it's not spreading

any present or future doctor please???

=)