Not a secret anymore

The secret is:
Sometimes I can just be so pissed off by myself.
Im already 21 years old.
Yet, I can still be incredibly homesick.

Yes,
I yell like a baby girl whenever I call home.
I miss my daddy mummy like hell.

The great thing is:
Life's trying to teach me some lesson,
by always throwing me into far away land to study.

The sad thing is:
After all these years it seems like
I've still not learnt the way to give up my attachment.

Trust me,
After learning some dhamma,
Im trying, in fact, really hard to stop this negative emotion from arising.
And yea, Im still striving.

Simply frustrated with my baby girl nature:(

Indeed.
Being born into this world is suffering.
Getting old is suffering.
Being sick is suffering.
Death is suffering.

Lets strive to get out from the whole cycle of Samsara:)

But before that, I just NEEEED to go home next weekend. It will be my end-posting and coincidentally a long weekend! Been struggling with my thoughts for a few days, caught into the dilemma of whether to go home or not. Finally made my decision. Listened to my heart and she told me that its a good choice. If not, my mind will be so restless till CNY holiday comes. I won't be able to study in peace.

Nownownow~I can finally rest my mind, and get my battery charged for studying tomorrow! End posting exam for Ophthalmology posting is just around the corner. Its a relaxing and fun posting. Those specialists and doctors are so helpful and willing to teach! And as usual, good times always slip much faster than the bad times. Well, I just hope that Im not being excessively relaxed, Im gearing up myself to learn, learn, learn! I'd better stop my long-winded story and go to bed with a peaceful heart relieved by the thought of able to go home soon...

Night!

Peeps...