The mind of a doctor

Yay!!! It's end posting of Orthopaedic...F.I.N.A.L.L.Y!!!

Honestly speaking, and so sorry to tell you the truth that:
Orthopaedic is indeed, not my cup of tea nor my piece of cake=P

I don't wanna complain too much as it's already the Past.
But I just can't wait for it to end soon,
provided if my friends and I all passed the exam smoothly:)

So! Being feathery light-weighted since my exam ended this morning, I came across this super-beneficial article for everyone who's interested in the Dhamma and currently pursuing or working in the medical profession. 

Do refer to the tab above: "Dhamma in medical/nursing profession"

If you're like me, sometimes doubt may arise that whether I'm creating more harm to the sick while treating them. At times, when I observe my own mind, I might found myself to be more emotionless towards my patient. BUT! In fact, it wasn't so... It's just the matter of us already getting used to it, if you can understand what I mean. For eg, today I might encounter an old lady that got her leg amputated, but the next day I see a happily-married-with-a-newborn-baby young guy that was just being diagnosed a late stage kidney cancer which has already spread to his thigh. See, can you imagine if we immerse ourselves with different kinds of emotions for every single patient, we ourselves might be the one who got sick in the end, Psychiatric sickness! 

In the end, I struggled and it took me awhile to realise that it's OK to not always feel sad for my patients, as long as I don't have any ill will and try my best to take care of them, and most importantly to do no harm! "Primum non nocere" is one of the principle being reminded again and again by our great Orthopaedic specialist here. Another wise advice from him: to become a great doctor, being Brilliant isn't enough, you also need Commitment and Sincerity. This is so true, sometimes, our mind maybe too occupied with all the brilliant ideas that can prove that we're Right, but we neglected our commitment and sincerity to care for our patient's health.

Clinical year, to me is not just about learning how to apply what we have learnt and practice our clinical skills on our patients. It's also a period for us to discover our inner-self, the mind and the emotion that we should acquire when we face and treat our patients. Through observation, we've seen good drs who really care for their patients and the minority that only care for their own stomach. Whenever I see drs who are willing to listen and explain to patient's problem with compassion and kindness, I feel so touched and inspired. And it makes me feel like...

Yea, I may not be the most brilliant person on Earth, 
I may not be the most knowledgable dr, 
but I do hope that I can become a good dr that truly cares. 

My treatment may not be the most advanced and perfect one, 
but I hope that I can provide the best option available
and give my patients as much comfort as possible. 

I maybe thinking abit too much ahead,

but it's about time to set our mind right,

and learn to be comfortable with 

what we're going to practice in less than 2 years time.