the rain that ruins

well it isn't fair to blame the rain

maybe it was just feeling sooo heavy

and feel like letting go

butbutbut

i wanted to jog

my brain was jammed with zero input

suddenly...

splash~~~~~~

fine my jogging plan had to be canceled

i headed for a bath then

when i got back my roomie told me that the rain actually lasted less than 5 minutes!

=.=

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i hope i didn't change though

but definitely i can feel some slight changes in myself...

~im throwing more junk food into my GIT than usual

~im switching my 3 major meals into bread routines which i used to think as unhealthy

~im talking lesser and lesser each day(i don't feel like talking much like i used to..sometimes,maybe,i was just tired,but,most of the time,i dunno why,i'd rather choose to listen than to talk..unusual eh?..)

~im smiling lesser and lesser each day(it seems like there's nothing funny in the world im living in..my friends joked and i'd just laugh dryly,nothing more...i even laughed more at SPONGE BOB SQUARE PANTS><)

i wonder why people like to use the word "emo"

honestly speaking, i hate that word

because at such young age,like us

there's nothing big in our life that is worth to be "emo-ed" about

butbutbut

moments ago i just found out myself that people can just "emo" without any reason

like what im doing now

smile

smile

smile

vivian...

S.M.I.L.E